Married To My Cousin

Last night was a mistake

     Haidar's house is beautiful. It took a good hour  to go around the house for it is massive. Aunty Fadila showed me Haidar's baby pictures and told me funny stories from when he was young. I had a great time laughing my butt off.
    
     I love the little time we have spent with her.

      "Its getting late, I think I'll retire for the night. Mayhap you'll sleep in Haidar's room?" She asked while exiting the room.

       I looked at Haidar whose attention was on his laptop and then at Nadia.

     "Actually,I was thinking I would sleep with Nadia. We haven't really talked this night....if that's OK with you" I turned to Nadia
    
     "Of course, Haidar can she sleep with me pleaseee...."

       He looked up at me and I lowered my gaze. "She may do as she sees fit"
        
        I looked up at him and there was a deep scowl on his face. Is he angry? He looks furious. I gulp hard the lump building in my throat and got up.
    
       He looked at me dreadfully and I felt my eyes sting. What have I done to him? I just wanted to catch up with his sister that's all.

    Nadia being a University student filled me in on her first year. I couldn't pay attention, Haidar kept crawling into my thought. I slept with him on my mind.

      Haidar's POV
    
     I can't believe this girl, she chose to sleep with my sister. Way to fill my mom in on how we live...avoiding each other. God! She's going to get my mothers  nose all up in my  business

I  need to start acting all 'lovey dovey' with her around my family. The last thing I need is a problem with my parents.

    I went into the house to grab a drink. I walked into the kitchen and there she was, chatting up Nadia and making breakfast.
    
     "Get out!" I yelled at Nadia. Making both of them jump in fear. She quietly left.
       
     I turned to Jamaima who was shaking in fear."What the hell where you thinking, sleeping with Nadia last night......its not enough you walked into my life and took my freedom now you want my parents to think I don't treat you RIGHT?" I started pacing the floor.
   
     "I-I d-didn't mean to, I just wanted to get to know her more..." Her voice breaking

     "You didn't mean to? SAVE IT! " I chuckle darkly as she shakes her head vigorously as a sob escaped her lips.
      
      I looked up at her, her eyes were filled with tears and she started sobbing into her palms her shoulders shaking.

     SHIT! What have I done. She clearly didn't mean to..

     I took a step towards her and she slipped down to the floor wailing. "I'm... I didn't.... I'm sorry." She raised her palms.
    
      "I know. You hate me...." She laughed humorlessly then she got up "you hate the sight of me...You detest me! I walked into your life and took you're freedom? Haidar I'm seventeen, you're twenty five..." she sniffles

"My life ended before it began,but I didn't look at it that way....I have never been in love with a guy,I thought I'd give you a chance...

I thought you'd protect me you'd never hurt me..." She fell silent then looked in my eyes

"I have never seen you more than a brother and today I see you as less....I thought you'd drop the attitude after we get married that's why I have been all sweet and gushy GIVING YOU A CHANCE!" She screamed.

"But boy was I wrong, you can never change...you ego won't let you " she wipes her tears and clears her throat then chuckles.

"After last night I actually thought you had feelings for me....if not love at least lust.. I thought maybe there was something between us. Us?" She smirks "there is no US and there never will be Haidar!"

     I gulp. I looked at her,I listened carefully and her words register. She was right.....I felt light headed. she is right! I'm never gonna change... I walked to her and took her in a forceful embrace..I know I don't deserve to hug her,I know I don't deserve her to forgive me but I asked anyways.

    "I'm sorry....will you for-forgive me. Please.." I have never apologized to any woman for hurting her before. but this time, even I know I messed up.

      She broke into sobs once more and I just held her in my arms. After some minutes she broke away "You'll never change...just leave me alone" she wiped her tears away "and last night...Last night was a mistake" then she stormed out.

  My heart sank at her last words...last night was a mistake? I shake my head and smirk.. She wants it this way then fine!.

     This was not how I expected things to be...but oh well..
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