Mistake // Yoonmin

29. Can't get him out of my head

AN: WARNING This chapter is shit because I have writers block and it's not edited.

Anxiety courses through the teenager. It was his first day back at school. The first time Yoongi would be apart from Suji. He hadn't had her out of his sight for more then an hour or two and even then they were still in the same home so to know he'll be a away from her for several hours was nerve racking to him. He couldn't help but worry something would happen while he was gone.

"Yoongi, you're back!"

"Hi Yoongi."

"Nice to see you again Yoongi."

He smiled at the greeting people but didn't stop to talk to them. He could sense the eyes on him as he made his way to his locker. He opened it , looking into the mirror that was placed on the door. He couldn't help but focus on the dark purple under eye bags.

"Are my eyes deceiving me? Am I imagining things?" His friend and teammate, Ten, stood before him with a wide goofy smile on his face.

"Nope. Unfortunately you are not." Yoongi sighed turning his back on the shorter male, stuffing his locker with books. Any one could tell from a mile away that Yoongi was all too thrilled to be back.

"Aw can't be all bad. Now you get to see me." Ten looked at him flirtatiously. Yoongi couldn't miss the way the shorter stared him up and down.

"Jesus Ten. He hasn't even been back a full day and you're already eye raping him." Hoseok said approaching the two. Ten only rolled his eyes mumbling about how Hoseok was no fun. Yoongi smiled looking at them, he did miss hanging out with them.

"So Yoon do you have a picture of her? I thought you would have posted something." Ten asked. Yoongi nodded taking his phone out opening an album dedicated purely to his daughter. It consisted of more than 50 pictures of the three week old.

Yoongi decided not to post any pictures of her on his social media's so none of his friends, other than Hoseok, knew what she looked like. He just didn't want people, like Krystal, to talk about her because he knew damn right he wouldn't hold back from going off.

"Oh my god, Yoon she's precious. I have to meet her." Ten gushed zooming into the baby's face.

Yoongi nodded in agreement. "Yeah you should come over." Ten didn't hesitate to accept the offer.

Yoongi shut his locker ready to walk to class with his two friends when suddenly a certain someone caught his eyes. The now pink haired boy was talking to his own friends, looking completely care free. Yoongi felt an ache in his chest but chose to ignore it.

Their eyes met for short moment. Yoongi stared at him blankly before he began his walk to class, passing by the junior like he was a stranger. He could feel the younger's eyes on him but he didn't even glance at him.

Thats how Yoongi planned to be. He planned to not speak to the boy or even acknowledge his existence. Just how things were before they slept together. That's what Jimin wanted right?

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Yoongi sat out in the balcony. His head leaned against the rails. He was tired but his mind was racing to quickly to allow him to sleep. His eyes were glossy as he stared up at the stars. He observed the way the hues of purple and blue blended together.

It was beautiful, breath taking, yet he had never realized it until Jimin had came along. He hated that even the sky could cause his heart ache.

Yoongi sighed shaking his head. 'Why are you thinking of him?' He questioned himself. Yoongi tried desperately to never think of him but it was an impossible task. Every time he stared at his daughter all he could think of was him and it only made him feel stupid especially after seeing Him today.

He never should have fallen for the younger. He never should have allowed himself to feel anything for Jimin. Yoongi should have known better. He knew from the start that it would end badly. But now it was too late. Now he felt an empty void in his chest. He thought that once Suji was here he'd be too busy to even think of the younger but he quickly learned that that wasn't fully true. Once Suji was asleep he was left alone with his thoughts.

To everyone else Yoongi was fine. He was over Jimin and couldn't even spare him a second but that wasn't true. The boy was in his mind way more that he wished.

Sometimes Yoongi couldn't help but picture what it would be like to have him around. They would be a happy little family.

Every time a thought like that would pop up Yoongi would try to shake it away telling himself that he wanted Jimin to be happy with the choice he made. But the truth was it was the opposite. Truth was Yoongi wanted the younger to be miserable. He wanted the boy to be just as miserable as him if not more. He was bitter. His daughter's other parent didn't even know half the shit that has happened since Suji was born.

Yoongi stood from the balcony once he began to hear soft whimpers coming from the baby monitor.

He went over to his daughters crib. She had her fist in her mouth kicking her feet out. "And why might you be awake?" He whispered to her. He picked her up quickly discovering the cause of the whiny baby was a wet diaper. He put her back to bed ready go go to bed himself.

He had just finished settling into bed when his phone began to ring.

"Hello?"

"I'm outside. Please open the door."

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This chapter is really bad sorry 😬😬. I have really bad writers block and don't know what to do. I'm at a point where I just kinda don't want to write this story anymore.