Operation: Taming His WIFE

Chapter 7: Selfish

CHAPTER 7: SELFISH

 

 

 

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Selfish-concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself :  seeking or concentrating on one's own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others

 

(Merriam- Webster Dictionary Online)

 

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CAMELLE BLAZE

Halos kanina pa ako nahihilo habang hila-hila ni Deus Jin habang lumilibot dito sa mall. Paano ba naman, kanina pa kami pasikot-sikot sa iba't ibang jewelry shop pero hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa din siya makapamili ng wedding ring namin! Yung totoo? Ganun ba kahirap pumili ng singsing?! Isa pa, hindi ba't ako itong babae eh bakit siya itong namimili?! Heck! Sarap lang pagsabihan ng mokong!

But on the other hand, I can't mind because I admit, I'm really enjoying his company, big time. It takes my mind off to other more important things to think of such as our *ehem* wedding. Arghhh! Now that I have thought about it, why did I became so much impulsive all of a sudden?! And not to mention, possessive? Ano namang pakielam ko kung magustuhan man ni Deus Jin ang malandi kong stepsister, di ba?! Like I could do something about it...yet...yet...

Yet, I can't help but to admit that a part of me---aches? Is hurt?---everytime the possibility of Deus Jin liking my b*tchy stepsister crosses into my mind. And I have no doubt that someone as good as him, could do the impossible of liking that b*tch. He has a good heart, after all. The kind of heart that sees the best even in the worst persons.

Inaamin ko, isa din sa mga dahilan kung bakit ayokong magpakasal dito ay dahil iniisip kong hindi ako nararapat para sa isang tulad niya. Us, being in a marriage, is like trying to make two same poles of magnet attract. It's also the same as making North meet South and East meet West. He was too good for someone like me...a b*tch, a shrew and a certified heartbreaker.

Still, everytime I see his smile, everytime he looks at me, everytime he makes my heart beat faster than it should be, everytime he makes me feel like I'm someone worth to be loved, I can't help but be possessive. I can't help but to be greedy and want more of him. I want him to look at only me. I want to take all of his affection. And these new feelings scare me.

Hindi ko maiwasang matakot sa mga nararamdaman ko. I was always the kind of girl who is contented of what she has. Sa lahat ng mga pinagdaanan ko, sinanay ko na ang sarili kong makuntento sa kung anong meron ako. Pero ngayon, sa unang pagkakataon, gusto kong maghangad, gusto kong maging makasarili. Hindi naman siguro masamang maghangad kahit minsan di ba? Kahit ngayon lang...