Buddy Language

Buddy Signal: Revelation

I was trying to stop the tears that kept falling. I thought I did enough crying this afternoon. But I never knew that I has so much left in my reservoir.

I guess that's the only way my heart knows how to lessen the burden it has been carrying all this time.

I wiped it constantly, but it drops just as fast.

My vision got so blurry that I leaned my head on one of the trunks, trying to calm myself down. I can't go back to the inn looking this way. That would just place another burden on me.

And that's when I felt him backhugging me.

He leaned his forehead on my shoulders, his arms caging me in, closely to his chest. I tried to wriggle out of his hold, but it was no use.

There was dampness on my neck  indicating that he was crying as well.

"Yue, please listen to me. Please, just give me a few more minutes." He begged.

I stop fighting him, silently agreeing.

"10 minutes Dy. Then I'm going back. This, us, we're done." I whispered in exasperation.

"I was afraid Yue. I love you but I was afraid of what may happen. I saw how the netizens were attacking you. Even my fans sometimes attacks you. And my management placed a huge pressure on me when I accepted this offer." He started.

"I was under contract not to let anything be shown of us having any other interaction, other than what they had instructed. The producers themselves we're so adamant about it. They wanted to control the editing, in such a way that it would advertise our love team but not too much to create a buzz between us. So they started the love triangle."

"We were invited to bring more viewers into the show. But we are to limit whatever interactions we have. They saw the behind the scenes of MG, they didn't want a repeat of that. I didn't want to tell you, since I didn't want to put such burden on you. You were already facing a lot of stress and I didn't want to add to any of that. So I was constantly in contact with your manager instead. They also agreed to keep you in the dark, to bring out a spontaneous reaction out of you."

"If I were to disregard any of that, both of us will face a huge consequence. One word from Hunan, and all our awaiting projects will be gone." He said to me, finally explaining the reason behind his actions. But it wasn't enough. It still doesn't explain everything.

"Those bashers and negative critics are my problem Dy. I could handle that. But you should've told me. You were afraid? I WAS ALSO AFRAID Dy. But still I happily accepted the show. But then, I was completely blindsided by your treatment of me. I didn't know how to act, I was so confuse and emotionally drained all the time."

"You said you were under instructions? Were you also instructed to hinder my interactions with the other casts as well? Because you did all that you can to control that, even when I was actually happy with the filming." I tried to get all the truth out of him.

I felt him loosen his hug and stood back up. I then turned to him.

He sighed.

"I was jealous. I was fvcking jealous because they could interact with you freely, the way I wanted to, the way we used to. And I hated seeing you enjoy their company, when it should've been me, right there beside you. I know that I was wrong, and I'm really sorry Yue."

"I was losing my mind thinking of ways to come up with a solution or a loop hole, I could reason out with the production team. But nothing really comes up, so as frustrated as I was I ended up hurting you." He looked at me intently, the frustrations and fear evident in his eyes.