"Jeremiah I don't know what to say."
I had just watched the best apology ever. It was a slideshow of pictures of me and Jeremiah in our little relationship. And just as it finished Jeremiah stormed right threw the door.
"I think you two need a little one on one time. Don't you think Alex?" Danae said as she rose to get out of her bed.
"Oh we will leave!!! It's ok!! Lay back down. You guys stay here. We r gunna take a little walk and get some air" I said and left the room with Jeremiah following close behind.
I decided to start walking towards the little park down the street. No one ever goes there anyways so I guess it would be a good place.
"Daesha I..." He said when we started walking.
"Shut up and just walk" I said not meanly or angrily.
So we did. We walked in silence side by side. Of course the park wasn't THAT far away from the house. Just a few minuets. Once we got there, we found a bench in the shade and sat down.
"Listen. Jeremiah. These past couple of days have been some of the worst. My best friend and her boyfriend get into a crash. I fought with you and everything was just hectic and overwhelming. I need to take a second and breathe."
"So take a second. We don't have anything to do today. Alex and Danae are at home and we aren't fighting anymore" he closed and eyes and crossed his fingers like he was wishing we weren't.
I chuckled. "No, I guess not"
"Phew. Alright so back to what I was saying. You can breathe or do whatever you need to. Everything is going to be alright." He said and reached his arm around my shoulder.
"Wait wait wait. Just cuz we aren't fighting doesn't mean we are ok."
He looked a little hurt at first but he bounced back. "Alright so do you wanna talk about it?"
"We have to." I said.
"Alright. Go."
"No you first. I'm still breathing" I chucked.
"Alright, umm well you know we haven't officially broken up and I don't want us too. I know you know that I'm sorry. And really all I have left to say is that I don't want to lose you. At all. I want to keep on creating moments like the ones in the movie with you." He said.
"I know that REAL couples have their problems and issues and tests. They have their good days like in that video and they have their bad days like from homecoming to yesterday. And the truth is, I don't want to lose you either. It's just that. It's not going to be easy for me to get over this. Our relationship will NEVER be the same. EVER. And I think we are going to have to start over for me to even get back to the place we were at."
"What? Start over? Uh uhh deals off!!" He said getting up.
"excuse me?!?!?!" I said getting mad and standing up.
"Baby!!! I'm joking!!! Of course I will do whatever it takes because I love you."
"You what???" I said suddenly feeling the need to sit back down. But I couldn't. I was paralyzed. Did he really just use the L-word?
"I love you. That's why I spent so much time and effort on you. That's why I don't care what I have to do or go through to stay with you. I'll do anything"
"I. I. I don't know what to say because I don't know if..."
"Shhh I understand. I just had to get that off my chest. But I promise one day I will make you love me to. Then we will get married and have 6 kids and a pet turtle" he laughed
"6 kids?? A pet turtle? Ha.Ha.Ha. Very funny. Nice try pretty boy."
"Hey guys!!" It was Alex being rolled down the street by Danae.
"We brought food!!" Danae screamed like she was miles away.
As they rolled up we realized they had brought some sandwiches and chips and a blanket.
"We thought you guys would be hungry!" Alex said.
"How did y'all know we where we were?" I said sitting down on the blanket and opening a back of Cheetos.
"Danae said she remembered that you loved to come here and think." Alex said his eyes welling up with tears.
"Ok but how did you get out the house?" I asked.
"We sneaked out!! Oh it was so much fun!" Danae squealed. She started ranting about how her mom was taking a nap and she had to quietly roll Alex down the hallway to get to the door and then the chair got stuck and in the middle of her talking I hear Jeremiah whispering in my ear;
"What's wrong with Alex? Is he in pain?"
I glanced over at Alex who was trying to wipe the tears off his face without anyone noticing. That's when I realized that Jeremiah had no clue what happened with Danae and I put him on the not allowed list at the hospital so he couldn't find out. I figured it was time to clue him in.
"When Danae got in the crash she came out with a concussion and temporary short term memory loss. Alex was feeling guilty that she wouldn't remember anything and so for her to remember this is big for him. For both of them actually." I whispered back
"I see why you needed to breathe." He said as he put his hand in my cheeto bag and took out a handful of chips.
"No you did not. Ooo Jeremiah I could hurt you right now! You did not!!!"
"All is fair in love in war baby!" He said as he gobbled up my food.
The rest of the afternoon was relaxing. Talking and laughing with friends. Telling jokes and stealing food and playing around. Eventually Danae's mom woke up and pretty much had a heart attack when she found out we were gone so she made us come home.
We decided to finish the night with a movie. A REAL movie. So I popped in Ride Along and we all started watching.
1/2 way through Alex was picked up so that he could go home and after that Danae ended up falling asleep. Me and Jeremiah decided it was time to go. He went outside while I woke up Danae and walked her to bed and said goodbye to her mom.
When I got outside he was still there.
"What are you still doing here?" I said.
"Waiting for you!!! You can't walk by yourself! Come on." He said and started walking.
"Jeremiah it's 11 at night you need to go! My house is right there! I can..."
"Just shut up and walk ok?"
And so we did.
Once I got to my house I turned to him. We looked at each other. And I leaned in to kiss him.
For real this time.
