Secrets The Heart Holds - LARRY STYLINSON MPREG

Chapter 10

(A/N - I ACCIDENTALLY HIT PUBLISH ON A CHAPTER I WAS GOING OVER SORRY ABOUT  THAT BUT AS A OOOPS MY BAD THIS CHAPTER IS READY AND DON'T WORRY I WILL STILL UPDATE THE NEXT CHAPTER ON SUNDAY I JUST NEED TO CORRECT A FEW THINGS....ALL THE LOVE)

A/N MENTIONS OF DOMESTIC ABUSE AND MISCARRIAGE ARE MENTION IN THIS CHAPTER

"KNOCK kNOCK"

"Harry" louis says not believing he actually was there "come in"

"hi" harry says awkardly as he walks into the house and sits down on the couch and louis sits on the other side and they both just sit down awkwardly staring at each other for a few minutes "lou, im not trying to be rude but if you invited me to come over to stare at each other i think i better go"

"not just i wasn't sure you were actually going to show up" louis says taking a deep breath

"look all this silence is better than us fighting but i have a plane to catch" harry says

"look, this is hard for me, but please let me say what i have to say and then you can go if you want" louis says as he takes a deep breath trying to hold his tears

"ok" harry says as he stares at him really just wanting to hug and kiss him

"harry, i want to apologize for everything the 4 days i couldn't get a hold of you i was thinking the worse, but most of all i realized that i hurt you the worst way possible, because i was angry at myself and i never should of used olivia, that was wrong and I promise never to do it again, you are an amazing father to our daughter and i know how much you love her and how much she loves you" louis says taking a deep breath trying his hardest to not to cry

"thank you" harry says as he takes breath " but why were you so angry at me"

"because i saw pictures of you and luke and my jealousy got the best of me, and i didn't care how but i wanted you to hurt the way i was hurting at that moment, but that was not your fault that was my fault because i should of talked to you and told you everything , everyone kept telling me to but i  well i am to stubborn to listen but when you disappeared that scared me into realizing that i really do love you and that all this mess is my fault, i know you cheated on me, but i should of been honest and talked to you even when we were at the island at jeffs i didn't i was a coward but Harry seeing pictures of you and luke made it all to real, made me realize that one day i was going to loose you forever because i refuse to be the bigger person and talk to you" louis pauses

"look i get that i hurt you and apologized so many times for it and you wouldn't give me a chance, louis i hurt you and broke your trust but what you did to me is far worst" harry says trying his hardest not to cry as louis just nods in agreement because he gets it he took it to far and he shouldn't of" i asked you repeatedly to talk to me and you wouldn't not even once you just brushed me off like my feelings didn't matter and that is how you made me feel, i accept your apology but i cant forgive you, i'm sorry, i think i should go"

"no please don't go, i wanted to tell you also that i love you, that i am truly, deeply, madly in love with you and i guess i didn't want to realize or i guess accept it because i always felt that i was never good enough for you, and that was stupid of me, but i felt that you one day would wake up and see that i was not good enough and would leave me and when you cheated it made my worst fears come true, its not an excuse to hurt you, but i know now that i should of told you that from the beginning but then you became famous and well i always thought you would get tired of living such a boring life that your hollywood life would be more exciting, i know its stupid but that is what i was and will always be afraid of" louis finally confesses" i really am sorry for everything"