i pour my emotions onto a blank page, staining its purity with my petty crimes
wondering why i can no longer go back to before i did the thing i did, before all the pride, before all the embarrassment and shame and guilt and frustration and hatred
i loved you like a moth loves its flame until i ran out of love to give to anyone else
i loved you too much and forgot to spare some for myself
and i drowned in quiet comparison, poisoning my veins with feelings that would devour me every single night
i loved you until i could no longer love you
i loved you until the only thing left to feel for you
was hatred
and so i hated you
i'm sorry
YOU ARE READING
i think too much
Poetrywhen i was seven i couldn't wait to be seventeen. now i just want it to end. h © 2018