Darling | knj

[12/15]

APOLOGY

Namjoon quickly payed the driver before stepping out of the car, his brows furrowed as he tried to remember which building was yours. He had picked you up there plenty of times, but in the midst of his frantic search, the location momentarily slipped his mind.

He walked up to the entrance doors and pressed the button corresponding with your apartment, waiting for you to answer.

"Who is it?"

That wasn't your voice, he thought, pressing the button to respond, "Uh, this is Namjoon. Is Y/N there?"

"She doesn't want to see you right now."

"Can I just talk to her...please?"

"...Hold on."

Namjoon waited for a few minutes, standing awkwardly as a few people buzzed in with their own keys, not offering him entry for obvious reasons. The number one reason being, he didn't live there.

He jumped in surprise when the unidentified voice returned, "She said she doesn't want to talk to you right now, sorry."

Namjoon sighed, "Alright. Tell her I'm sorry...please."

"She knows. I don't mean to sound rude—well, maybe I do—but Y/N really likes you. Not just as a soulmate, but as a friend. She trusted you and put all her faith in your relationship. She gave you space, and didn't pry when you got silent for a few days at a time. She's a fucking amazing person and you're an idiot to have let your attitude get this far."

"I know. If there's any way I can make this better...please tell me."

The line was silent for a few seconds, "Announce your relationship to the public."

•

Namjoon pondered your friends words for days, even during performances he found himself daze, much to his dismay this caused a few slip ups in the routine in his part. He seriously weighed his options, lose you, or lose fans. As sickening as it was, this was a hard decision on his part. He didn't want to lose you, but the fans that didn't like him having you as his soulmate would for sure find some way to harm you, through the internet or otherwise. And though your pen name was kept secret and seen as separate from you, Y/N L/N, they could find out and potentially ruin your career. He didn't want that in the slightest. But, your friend had told him you were ready for anything that came your way. You would sacrifice everything to be with him, because that was the nature of soulmates—the words on your wrists required that of you. "Happy relationships don't just happen. You make them happen."

He sighed, he knew what he had to do.

A few days later, with the approval of Bang Shihyuk, the CEO, Namjoon set up the camera in his studio. He connected it to the VLive app, making sure everything in the room was clean and that the service in the building was sufficient enough to avoid any technological and video quality mishaps on his part.

Entering the name of the live as "I'm sorry" he anxiously waited for people to join. He sighed, hoping that somehow you would see this. You didn't respond to his texts or calls, so he could only hope you still had your VLive notifications on.

"Hi ARMY," he smiled awkwardly, "I'm just going to start. I'll be less nervous with fewer people."

He laughed painfully, watching the comments roll in.

Namjoon~ don't worry!

Te amo 💕❤️💕

Where's Jimin?

Ahhh why are you up so late???

Hola de Españia 🇪🇸

NAMJOON AKDJAKS I LOVE YOU

사랑해 남준

Bonjour de France~

こんにちは ❤️

AH I WAS JUST ABOUT TO GO TO BED

Guten Morgen! Namjoon, ich wünsche dir einen schönen Tag 💕💗💖💗💕💓

Do homework or watch a man speak a language I don't know? (Jk Namjoon love u)

Как дела?

"Ah, hello everyone. Sorry this is late, I hope I'm not keeping you from your studies."

Namjoon laughed seeing comments about homework being too difficult to think about at the moment.

He coughed, "Anyway, I firstly want to apologize to all of you. My recent performances have been subpar, and you do not deserve that. My reasons don't excuse my actions.

"With the permission of Bang PD-nim, I wanted to tell you guys that recently I've realized something. Happiness is not defined by how many people like or dislike you. For weeks now I've been at war with myself about whether my happiness was important enough to possible risk my career and BTS'. How could I possibly be risking our careers? Well..."

Namjoon, we'll stand by you no matter what

ARMY loves you 💕

사랑해

걱정 마세요~

สวัสดีค่ะ 👋🏻

"Um, what I mean when I say this is...I've found someone who has become very dear to me. I regret to say I let go of them in exchange for less drama not only within the media, but within my own life. I was afraid of committing to them as both a friend and as a...as a soulmate."

•

"Y/N!!!"

You heard loud footsteps near your room, "F/N calm down, I don't want to bother the couple downstairs."

"But Y/N! Mina just sent me this: look!"

You sighed, grabbing her phone from her hand, surprised to see Namjoon on the screen, "What is this?"

"Shush, turn it up."

You obliged, now hearing his voice through the speakers.

"I used our comeback as an excuse for being busy, and her, being so understanding of my position, gave me space to work and rest. She only cared for my health even after I had stopped responding to her. I realize now how stupid I was. I wish only for her to accept my apology. Y/N, if you're listening, I'm ready to work towards us. I'm no longer haunted by the words inscribed on our wrists...I love you."

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A/N: ok y'all the translations aren't exact I used an app to get all of the languages translated

(Two more chapters akdjakskaka)