I'm in Pain..

Part 2

I got a call and I looked at the name
Of course it's Hayden..
Hayden - Sup Carson
Carson - Hey Dude
Hayden - Where did you go?
Carson - Well a girl helped me to the office so I can go home because... that's not important
Hayden - A Girl! Lucky
Carson - Its not like that we just met
Hayden - But Wow was she nice
Carson - So Nice..
Hayden - Anyways Johnny want us to come to his house
Carson - I guess I'm down...
Hayden - What's wrong?
Carson - Idk I'll be there!
I ended the call
Ugh I really didn't want to go Idk why I have a feeling
I got my bag and headed Of and fixed my blue sweatshirt and headed out
I arrived at Johns and Hayden and Lauren opened the door
Hayden - Hey!
Carson - Sup.. *walks inside*
When I arrived I saw Lauren's friends
I just went to Johns room and went on my phone
John and Hayden and Case came in
Case - Hey..
Carson - Sup Dudes
John - Um someone called you
Carson - Tell then I'm busy
Hayden - Are you sure
Carson - Why not?
Case - Shes really pretty..
Carson - I'm really not in the mood ok!
I laid on Johns bed and went on my phone
I heard the door close and they went downstairs
I kept on going on my phone until John came in
Johnny - Come on were going to the park with the girls
Carson - I don't want to go..
Johnny - Come on!
Carson - Fine!
I put my hoodie hat on and went downstairs and all the girls looked at me
I went outside and went in the car and went on my phone
My eyes were so dry I wanted to close them and end my life
I shaked my head to make my eyes better
The girls came in and Annie sat next to me I was surprised she was with them
We stared at each other for a bit but then I looked away because I wasn't really in the mood
I laid my head against the car chair
Annie - um are you alright
Carson - never *mumbles*
Annie heard clearly
Annie's POV: He's in pain, he's depressed, I feel so bad because Christian is so mean to him
I held his hand and laid my head gently on his chest
Carson POV: What is she doing! I'm really not in the mood.. I'm never am that's why I don't belong to anyone but.. It felt so right so I laid my head on top of hers and held her hand tighter
We stayed like that the whole car ride but then we arrived at the park
I wasn't in the mood to play with them so I sat on the bench smoking
I saw everyone having a good time and I didn't even care about my feelings
I texted my brother
Carson - Hey Jackson
Jackson - Hey Cars how are you feeling
Carson - Is that even a question.. Im never Alright
Jackson - Sorry.. I know we've had a pretty hard life
Carson - You can say that
Jackson - My wife is calling me gtg
Carson - I guess I'll text you later
I stopped texting him
My brother and I are kinda on good terms I guess we never really talk because he has a goodish life..
I smoked some more
Smoking Is the only thing that helps me
Annie came over and grabbed the cigarette from me and put in the garbage
Carson - Hey!
Annie - Carson.. you know you can you to jail for this
Carson - Who cares
She grabbed my hands
Annie - Me..
Carson - You..?
Annie - I hate to see you like this
Carson - You.. don't understand why I'm like this it's a long story
I started to walk away but she grabbed my arm and hugged me
I've literally never been hugged in 7 years
My eyes widen open and I hugged back gently
Annie - Don't go.. *whispers*
I pushed her off but not aggressively
Carson - I-I can't do this *crying voice and tears were coming out*
I ran off and saw Annie running after me
Annie got in front of me
Carson - Just leave me alone
Annie - Why.. what's wrong *says softly*
Carson - You don't understand I just have a bad life I get hurt by me and other people and my father is very abusive and he fucking killed my mother but drunk driving her and my fu-
I started crying
She hugged me so tight
Annie - Shh...
Carson - I just don't want to live anymore ok
Annie - Don't you ever say that..
Carson - Its True though trust me if you were like me maybe you would be dead
Annie looked at my arm because the sleeves were kinda folded and saw little marks on my wrist
Annie - Did you cut yourself..
I pulled down my sleeves and looked away in tears
Annie looked up at me in tears
Annie - No..
Carson - your scared of me.. aren't you
Annie - N-
Carson - You don't see it *slightly laughs* deep down everyone is, you,my friends, and everyone on this planet
Annie - I'm not.. I'm more sorry for you then scared
Carson - I have to go..
Annie - No I'm not letting you leave
Carson - Why? WHY SHOULDN'T I JUST LEAVE AND END MY LIFE NOW! let me guess because I'm a human being *slightly laughs* I'm a human being who needs to die
Annie - But you shouldn't please don't please!
Carson - I feel like it everyday so why shouldn't I
Annie - There are people who love you
Carson - Thats such a lie *slightly laughs* no one in this planet loves me not even my friends I just relate to them
Annie - What about your family
Carson - What family?
Annie - ...
Carson - Of course just go to Asher and date him who cares
Annie - You don't understand I don't like Asher..
Annie - I'm taking you home..
Carson - What home I would call it a little house with nothing
Annie's POV: I can't handle this guy suffering anymore
Annie - Then come live with me
Carson - Thats not gonna happened
Annie - Yes it is Please I hate to see you like this I want you to be ok..
Carson - For how long?
Annie - Tell my parents come back from there business trip
Carson - Are you sure..
Annie - I've never been so sure in my life
He smiled at me kinda slightly
I hugged him and he hugged back
I've never had a connection with a person this much.. I liked it
Carson - Thank you.. it means a lot
I smiled at him and I took his hand and we went back to the park