Hey. I know by the name of the title you might be wondering how'd i change? It wasn't me. I didn't mean to change. I don't want...to change! I..don't trust myself. No one! I DON'T BELIEVE IN DREAMS I DON'T BELIEVE IN FRIENDSHIP OR ANY RELATIONSHIP AND I DON'T BELIEVE IN TRUST....but i make myself believe. Believe in everyone.In dreams and Relationships and trust. But inside. I don't. I don't know who i am anymore. I've become sensitive. Really sensitive. I'm more of a crybaby now. I don't act like my own age. I...I'm just scared. Scared. SCARED. Why. Whyyy?!!??! Why did i have to live. Why did i have to exist?!?!?!? Im getting asked like if I KNOW EVERYTHING BUT I DON'T! I JUST DON'T. I DONT KNOW THE ANSWER OKAY?! I...I'm just scared..my anxiety is getting to me. Taking over ME. My deppresion is just growing and what do i do?!
I.
Just.
Smile.
I...smile. That's it. Smiling keeps me from crying, for hiding my secrets and my suffering. Good for pretending.
I just don't know.
Im sorry im acting like an IDIOT.
Screaming inside.But no one will ever know if i just keep on..
Smiling.
