[Jasmine] |•doil•

Too much affection

Sometimes you need love and you need it so much that you feel sad, almost lost. You want too much and you never want to ask for it so what can doyoung do when he is too tired of his loveless life? Well, he takes a day off

If you happened to pass by doyoung's house in a mundane cold evening and asked him what he'll do tomorrow, then he'll probably say that calling in sick to get a day off from his work won't lose him an Oscar so that's what he will probably do. But what he didn't know was that God has different plans for him and he certainly won't like them. And that's what he finds out when he wakes up with high fever the next day.

"Yeah, fever. What's that? Sounds like a French dish. You wouldn't like it" taeil says stupidly trying to cheer up doyoung

"I don't, you know I don't. My head's dizzy, my throat hurts. And I can't freaking focus on my damn work." doyoung coughs in the phone and taeil walks briskly with a worried look on his face. He knows that doyoung doesn't like to show it but he clearly is in pain, he doesn't want to be seen as weak. And Taeil also knows that doyoung hates getting sick, it ticks him off. And he just wants to help him.

Someone rings the bell of doyoung's house and interrupts doyoung and Taeil conversation.

"Wait a minute, some bastard just thought that it would be a nice idea to ring my bell today, huh" doyoung says annoyingly

"Language, doyoungie" taeil chuckles

Taeil smiles brightly at doyoung as he opens his house's door.

"You're really enjoying this, huh" doyoung smirks as taeil hugs him tightly saying incoherent phrases in doyoung's ears as doyoung giggles.

"Let's go inside now, it's cold here" doyoung says as he drags taeil inside by his hand.

"Hey, heard your house's been full of flowers. Eh, the popular handsome guy and the valentine tragedy" taeil says thoughtfully

"What are you talking about?" Doyoung chuckles

"You're telling me that you couldn't even score one date on valentine's Day" taeil says with a smile on his face

"Well, in all honesty, I didn't" doyoung says as he puts a pot of water on the stove, knowing that he and Taeil both love tea. He didn't need to think twice before making tea

"Come on, man. Your whole office is in love with you!" Taeil exclaims

"Well, jae and ten aren't." Doyoung states

"That's because they're in love with each other!" Taeil replies

"Yeah, well no one is really in love with anyone. That's just a very efficient rule of society"

"That's not true, doyoungie. Everyone's in love with someone, or something and they all want to be with the one they love, even if just for a moment. No one wants to be alone. And that's what you can call a sick truth of the society"

"Have you ever been in love?"

"Yeah, I guess, kinda. I have never told this to anyone before but there was this boy in my class in 8th grade. He just seemed like he knew what he was doing, like he had a purpose, and I loved that about him"

"Wow, you sure were a dreamy guy" doyoung says as he pours the tea in the cups.

"Were you ever in love?"

"Maybe, I wasn't sure"

"What do you mean, doyoungie? Eh, this love talk is getting to my head" taeil says as he takes the cup doyoung is extending towards him.

"Then let's stop talking about it. I am tired anyway"

Doyoung sits on his couch, covering himself with his purple blanket that had cute bunny faces on it, it was his favourite blanket because he liked bunnies and also because taeil gave it to him. Taeil sits on the other side of the couch, looking at the black TV screen

"Do you think that things have changed now? Taeil asks abruptly

"What do you mean?" Doyoung asks back

"Have you ever thought about it, like you know, kissing someone?"

"I try not to."

"What if I was dying? Then doyoungie, will you fulfill my last wish?

"What are you talking about?

"Just answer my question, please"

"Yeah, I'll do it whatever you want done" doyoung says firmly

"I want to kiss someone, or like be kissed before dying" taeil says slowly after thousands of moments.

"W-what?"

"It's fine, sorry I asked. It's just that I plan weddings, and quiet frankly I have seen way too many kisses, I get tired and I shut everything down but it would be nice to experience it once, for myself. What does it feel like? Do you feel like an electric current passes through you and does it reminds you of better days?" Taeil sips his tea, feeling nothing new, just the old rough feeling where you don't know anything for certain and you just want to be sure.

Doyoung looks at taeil, making a thousand decisions in his head, rejecting most of them, he puts his cup on the antique glass table in front of him, stands up, just hesitating for a second, he ruffles his hair, still wrapped in his blanket, he takes scared steps towards taeil, leans towards his face and asks softly; "ready?"

Taeil nods in approval and doyoung presses his lips against taeil's as they both close their eyes. Taeil feels too many things, and all the cliche fantasies seem real, and doyoung forgets his pain, just letting himself be in the presence of his best friend, and they forget who they are because the world expects too much from them and today they just wanted to live. But all these thoughts leave their heads as doyoung pulls back looking at taeil with his wide eyes.

"You know I wasn't dying today. Doyoungie"

"Oh, come on just shut up already"

"Okay!" taeil says happily as he hugs doyoung hastily making both of them fall on the couch

"Ow, you broke my back, I fricking hate you"

"I love you too, doyoungie"

Hey, so I am back. How are you fellas? I have been very busy and I am sorry to say this but updates might be less frequent now because my exams are coming up. Wish me luck. Also first doil kiss. Amirite? I think I am not good at kiss scenes but well imma write anyway. Here's a ten pic that I am totally in love with to make up for the late update;

*Sherly out*