My Trashy Life (aka My Diary Of Random Thoughts)

Could I ask something of you guys..?

I know it's vague.. but there just seems to be a lot on my heart and mind and.. I-I don't know how to fix it.. actually- I don't know how to fix ME.

Because lately I've taken too many things to heart.. every time I'm ignored by a friend, every time I feel the need to correct myself, every fricking time I make a mistake and make someone *cough* mad, I get worse. Everything just feels- worse than it should. Compliments barely feel good anymore. Every mistake is painfully obnoxious to me. Nothing is right, everything I do feels pointless. I just.. feel really empty. And alone.. even when I know I'm not, technically.

I.. *sigh* I hate being this down. I hate it so much because then it makes me feel like I just drag down everyone else. That was probably why I waited this long to say something and be open about this.. I'm likely going to regret it. Seeing as all these feelings are the reason I haven't posted anything new in quite a while, or have just been really lazy about what I've posted. Role playing has been pretty bland for me, my writing has just been totally.. stupid. So likely the people that like RPing with me are disappointed of my lack of response or heart. And angry that I haven't been motivated to write..

So I guess.. my question was.. Am I still fixable?