Roger's Diary (MAYLOR) COMPLETED

ch.5

BRIAN'S P.O.V: "I wanna know a lot of things but,I won't get to in depth right now... I just want to know why do you always say just kidding after we kiss?" Roger said staring deep into my eyes. 'I'll tell him.' I thought. "Because you told me too." I said softly staring into his tired ocean blue eyes. He gave me a confused look. "When?" He said tilting his head. "When you were drunk we went to the bathroom, you pulled me in for a kiss and told me you loved me and that you probably won't remember any of it, which you were right, and you told me if I liked you back to say it whenever we did anything loving." I said. He smiled. "You... Like me back?" He said his eyes sparkling. I shook my head no. "I don't like you.... I fucking love you." He hugged tackled me. I hugged him back, he started crying, he pulled away and looked at me wiping tears away. "Roger why are you crying." I asked he smiled. "I have been waiting to hear those words for a long time." He sobbed still smiling . I hugged him again. After a few more minutes of hugging he pulled away. I started leaning in for a kiss and he did the same our lips smashing together, we started kissing. Roger licked my bottom lip asking for access I opened my mouth and he stuck his tongue into my mouth and I stuck mine into his mouth after fighting for dominance again, I won, after a few more minutes we pulled away breathing heavily. "I love you so fucking much." Roger panted. I smiled. "I love you too." I said, he beamed at me. Then he looked up at the stars leaning his head on me I wrapped my arms around him and he soon fell asleep I smiled at him and picked him up and took him to his room.

ROGER'S P.O.V: I slowly opened my eyes and sat up, I looked around 'how am I in my bed? Last thing I knew I was outside with Brian and...' I smiled as I remembered the events from last night. I looked over to see Brian in my bed still sleeping. 'God he looked so cute and peaceful.' I thought he stirred a little then his eyes slowly fluttered open, he looked up at me and gave me a sleepy smile. I smiled back. "Good morning." I said he sat up. " Morning love." He said back. I kissed his lips softly. He smiled. Freddie came bursting through the door. 'I gotta remember to lock it.' I thought. "Good morning lovies!" He yelled, as Deaky awkwardly stood behind Freddie and wave, I nodded to him. "Good morning." Brian said. "What's up?" I asked wondering why he had barged in. "I wanted to make sure you two got up that's all." He said winking at me. I gave him a confused look. "Uh okay then." I said. "Oh yeah before I forget... We are going to go out later... So Roger dear, please contain yourself until then." I tilted my head slightly. "What does that supposed to mean?" I asked, he chuckled. "It means don't drink until then." I chuckled and looked at Brian. "I don't think I need to until then." I said looking back at Freddie he smiled and walked downstairs. Deaky gave me a soft smile and followed Freddie downstairs. 'God he was cute but not as cute Brian.' I thought I looked over at Brian and smiled. He smiled and booped my nose. "Soo~" He said with a smirk on his face. "So what?" I asked confused. "I want to ask you something." He said. I raised one eyebrow. "Go on." I said. "Do you want to be my boyfriend for real?" He asked blushing. I blushed really hard. "Hell yeah!" I said smiling. His eyes lit up and he smiled. I kissed his cheek. I stood up and stretched cracking my back and neck, Brian winced. "Doesn't that hurt?" He asked. "No." I chuckled. "It feels really good... I could crack it for you if I was stronger..." I trailed off. He gave me a look of pity. 'God I hate when people do that.' I smiled at him, it was more of a 'I don't give a shit' smile, he smiled back.

~TIME SKIP BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO WITH THAT~

BRIAN'S P.O.V: We arrived at the local bar around 7, the same one Rog and I kissed, I smiled at him as we got out of car. As we walked in he went to grab my hand but stopped half way. He looked at me and mumbled "sorry." And walked with his head down. I grabbed his hand, he looked up at me surprised then shook his head no and whispered. "What about other people..." He whispered with fear in his eyes. "Don't mind them love, they're just jealous." I said trying to reassure him. "We are here to have fun and let loose, so don't worry." I said smiling, he smiled back and headed inside. We went over to our usual table, the one in the back corner, we all took our seats. Freddie next to John, John next to Roger, and me next to Roger. We all ordered or more like Freddie ordered for him and Roger, their strongest stuff, and I just got a beer. John is our driver for tonight so he just got water. Once Roger and Freddie both downed some drinks they disappeared somewhere for a while. "Where do you think they have gone off to?" I asked kind of worried. "When those two get to partying... God knows." John replied, trying to hide the worry in his voice. Just then I see Roger and Freddie walking our way, Roger is walking a little stranger than he usually does when he's drunk. Freddie sits next to John giving him a hug. Roger walks up to me, swaying a little bit more than usual, He looks at me with a guilty smile, his eye whites are red and there's a bit of white powder under his nose, I put two and two together. "Roger!" I said standing up. "Whaaaat?" He said looking at me. I grabbed his hand and dragged him outside. "What was that for?" He asked. The sun was just setting but there was still some light out. He looked like hell, his eyes are red like I said before, there was powder under his nose, his pupils were dilated, and his hands were shaking. "Roger what the hell?" I asked pissed but I was trying to keep my cool. I think he picked up on that. "I was was j-just trying to have a little f-fun... Like you said." I shook my head and sighed. "That's not what I meant." I said sharply. "Look I'm not addicted." He said. "Who did you get it from?" I questioned. He shook his head. "Some girl's brother." I rolled my eyes. He looked down. "Sorry." I held his chin in between my thumb and pointer finger so he would look at me. He looked up shyly and blushed. I leaned in slowly and pressed my lips against his softly. Then pulled away. "Are you mad at me?" He asked. I shook my head. "Next time.... I won't be as easy." I said dryly. 'God I wonder how many times he has done this...' I thought to myself. "I'm assuming Freddie is also high." I said, he nodded. "The girl was pretty hot though." He said out of the blue. I gave him a weird look. ' It's probably just the drugs and alcohol talking.' I reassured myself. "I think it is time to go so we sho-" Roger cut me off. "But Bri I don't wanna go." He whined. 'God I really don't want to deal with him or this right now.' "Roger please I don't wanna deal with this right now... We are leaving and that's final." I said as if I was talking to a toddler not wanting to leave the park. He shook his head no. "Come on don't be a drag." He said. "I'm pretty sure John wants to leave as well." His face turns a light shade of pink. "He wants to go?" He questions. "Probably, it's late and both you and Freddie are higher than a kite." I said hoping he would believe me. He pondered for a moment. "Maybe..." He said. I grabbed his hand and took him back inside. Once inside he pulled away and went up to a girl she looked to be about in her early 20's, short blonde hair, from what I could make out grey eyes, she was wearing a red long sleeved shirt, blue jeans, tennis shoes, and a black scarf. I walked after Roger. "Oh good Brian you followed... This is Skylar." He gestured towards the girl. She smiled. Looking at her up close she didn't have any makeup on, and she had light freckles. "Ah this is the famous Brian I heard all about." She chuckled. "Yeah that's me." I smiled back. "I'm going to go get a drink I'll be right back." Roger bounced off we both sighed. "He seems like a handful when he's fucked up." She said I chuckled. "You have no idea." I was weary of this girl. "He's lucky to have you... You seem like an amazing fellow." She said, I looked at her confused. "What do you mean?" She chuckled. "The whole time I was with him he talked about how great you are, how understanding and accepting you are, how lucky he is to have you in his life... He talks very highly of you Brian." She said I smiled. "I'm lucky to have him." He came bouncing back with two drinks in his hands, he gave one to skylar. She smiled and took a swig. "Thank you Taylor." She responded playfully. After talking with this girl for a while she isn't half bad. It started to grow late and we decided to go home. "Gooodbyee Skyy." Roger said, drunker than before, he blew a kiss to her and she did it back. I got this weird feeling. 'Was I jealous?' I thought no I couldn't be they are just friends... We all are. After the semi-long car ride back to the house we all got out and went inside and said our good-nights. Roger pulled me into his room. He took off his coat and stuck something into his notebook. He climbed into bed joining me. It was silent for a while. "I love you." I heard a sleepy Roger say, I smiled to myself. "I love you too." I said drifting off to sleep...

A/N: Holy shit guys thank you so much for 80 reads! I decided to get off my arse  and write and I got it out a bit early. I hope you enjoy there is more to come obviously. See ya when I see ya next. Peace

-DudeOnFire