Unwanted Love

.40

Deanna's

"Coach I'm not gonna use my last playing year" I said to Coach O.

"Why Deanna?" He ask.

Hindi ko siya masagot, kasi kahit ako hindi ko rin alam yung sagot.

"Malayo pa ang Season Deanna pagisipan mo muna, sayang naman eh." Coach O said before leaving.

I don't know but after all the things that happened, ayaw ko na eto na naman ang maging cause ng lahat.

Ok na kami ni Jema at ayaw ko na masira ulit eto. Hindi ko pa nasasabi kay Jema na hindi ko na gagamitin last playing year ko. Pero pakiramdam ko nasesense niya na, she's been asking me lately why I don't attend practices.

I don't want us to dwell with everyone, yung pagnatalo kami isisi saakin buti sana kung sakin lang pati siya dinadamay. Minsan ang totoxic ng nga fans they demand, they interrogate, they judged and ang pinakaayaw ko  yung pinapakialaman at kinokontrol nila ang mga buhay namin as much as I don't want that to happen hindi maiwasan dahil sa sikat kaming volleyball player.

As I realize that volleyball and Jem will always have a connection with me hindi ko maiwasan na matakot na baka ito rin ang maging dahilan na mawala ulit ang lahat. Naguguluhan pa ako, kahit kasi nagkaayos na kami ni Jema I can't just forget that people arounds affects our relationship before and I don't want that to happen again.

Kinausap ko si Ate Bei, yes we fixed our issues na, Ate Bei is like my older sister na so we have this bond that I know kahit magkatampuhan kami our friendship will forever remain.

"Ate Bei how did you know that you want to play yung last playing year? You have a choice naman na wag na diba?

"You just felt it, that your job is not yet done, Yung parang you have a unfinished business.why?

"I'm having a second thought on playing my last year." I said

"Sayang naman.nagkabalikan na kayo ni Jema ha e bakit ayaw mo padin magvolleyball?"

"Kasi nga nagkabalikan na kami, baka gumulo na naman."

"I think she needs to know that too you know how much she loves volleyball naman diba.. Wag mo siya paglihiman."

"I know kumukuha lang ko ng tyempo.

Pagpunta ko sa apartment ni Jema naabutan ko siya na  nagaayos ng gamit.

"Love,busy?" I said and  hug her.

"Patapos na love, inayos ko lang yung mg gamit ko sa training."

"Sipag naman sa training ng love ko."

"Hmm ikaw nga pansin ko di na nagagalaw yang training bag mo,di ka pA ba  nagtetraining start na training niyo ha."

Hindi ako umimik kaya nilingon niya ako.

"May problema ba?"

"Love about that..."I Started

"Love I'm thinking of not using my final year in volleyball."

"Ha? Why? Nainjured ka ba? Sayang naman your gunning for 4peat history yun."

"I lost the passion love, parang ayaw ko na."

"Pagisipan mo muna Love ha, sayang naman."