Today I'm needy
I've been shaky.
very shaky...
It's really painful to be without you.
Chilling in class on the second floor but I can feel my hands washed cause I went to the bathroom.
That's not only what I did though...
Last period I waited a little extra long for you.
Cause I had something
Something I thought you might appreciate.
It was a box.
A pretty box...
reminded me of you.
I handed it to you with a quiet wish of "Happy Valentine's day..."
and you nodded and I moved on.
It's hard to type. I'm super shaky :P wtf is this?
I painted something that was true.
I have to be honest, I think I may have gone a bit overboard.
Maybe... Too much glitter.
But I wanted it to be good.
I can imagine you getting super pissed because the box may have popped open and hearts spilled out. You'd be super pissed at me, even if you said you weren't ... <3
Sorry... Didn't mean to embarrass you...
I hope you like it. I really do.
But I remember the time you told me you saw me in math class with my head down. Tired, Stressed.
I remember seeing you walk by my classroom and wanting to run out and hug you, kiss you with all I had...
I wanted to so bad.
You look so perfect in every situation it's hard to resist...
My heart feels on the verge of tears when I can't hold you.
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*takes a breath listening to inside out*
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*skips consequences because in current situation would not affect mind in a good way*
(may be fatal)
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I hate that I'm dumb. I hate it.
I wish I could be in your class just so I could stare at- ahem - see you a lot.
I know you might not like that tho.
So I wouldn't if I could--
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But anyway...
This time I went to the bathroom on the floor above just so I could walk by your classroom and see you in class.
I just wanted to see your face again.
You have no idea how much I need you.
How much my heart aches for you every minute of every hour of every. single. day.
I'm sick on you but you're the medicine too. (CC)
I just wanted to see you.
I never thought about it.
The idea just popped into my head and after a "can I go to the bathroom," the next thing I knew I was on my way up the stairs.
I walked slowly by your classroom, careful that I could get a good glance of you, but not to be too weird,,, which I think it's too late for that... Since I turned a few heads.
I promise I only walked by twice. Promise.
And that's only because I went to the bathroom. I went there and turned back.
I was half wishing for you to look up and see me, even if I did, I know you wouldn't like it. Maybe widen your eyes at me if you noticed I was there.
I can just see you telling me with your eyes.
"¡Go to class weirdo!"
It would make me laugh because I would want to make fun of you...
It's the only thing I could do... (:
"lovin' you I thought I couldn't get no higher"
But when I walked by I saw you with your head in your elbow and your classic concerned expression.
I'm half glad you didn't see me.
You may have gotten upset.
Please don't be upset.
I think I'm breaking right now. (cc)
It's time to leave class. I know, you think I wasted my time.
(I didn't)
