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Chapter 45 - Insecure.

I'll let you know when to play the song above if you're interested.

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"Ashley!" Julie yelled and ran towards me.
"Julie!" I yelled back and towards her as well. Once we met, we pulled each other into the biggest hug ever.

I miss her so much. This has been the longest time we've been away from each other and it's been so hard to not have her around.

"Bitch you look amazing! Paris has you glowing." She said as she pulled away and looked at me with the biggest smile on her face.
"It's been a ride, but you're looking fucking hot!" I said with a laugh.

"Aunt Julie!" Liam yelled as Grayson let him down and he ran towards us.
"My favorite kid in the universe!" She squealed. They both hugged each other tightly.

Julie carried Liam as we made our way over to Grayson, who's eyes were looking somewhere else. I furrowed my eyebrows. Once we got closer I wrapped my arms around him and looked around at what he's looking at. His hand laid on my lower back and he pulled me closer. My eyes fixed on a guy that was staring at Julie and I.

"Babe." I said as I laid my hand on his chest. I looked up at him.
"Fucking douchebag." He said under his breath. He looked away shaking his head.

"Grayson!" Julie said with a smile.
"Hey Julie!" He said happily as he hugged her. I smiled, seeing my best friend getting along with my fiancé is amazing.

Grayson helped Julie with her luggage as we all walked back to the car. Once we got in, Liam and Julie sat in the back. Eventually they both fell asleep on the way back home.

"Why did you call that guy a douche?" I asked Grayson as he's slightly stressed with the amount of traffic.
"He was checking you out." He said slightly annoyed.

I grabbed his free hand and held it.

"You know I love you right?" I asked. He looked at me and smiled.

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"Hi Ethan!" Julie said as Ethan joined us in the car.
"Hey Julie!" He said with a smile on his face.

We're currently going to the store together.

"Do you want me to drive?" I ask softly as I turn to Grayson, he seemed frustrated.
"It's fine." He said dryly.

I'm not sure if he's still bother about the guy or he's just done with the amount of traffic.

Everyone but Grayson were all talking on our way to the store. His seriousness is making me upset. I have this thing where whenever he's upset, I'm upset. It's a bad habit.

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Ethan carried Liam as we walked around. Julie and I were just looking around until Grayson and Ethan turned into a store so we followed.

"Is Grayson okay?" Julie asked.
"He's just moody today." I said with a sigh.

As the boys looked around, I looked around as well and was looking for something for the two.

"Guys have way better clothing than us." I said as I was looking at their sweatpants.
"They do!" Julie complained.

I looked over and saw Ethan and Grayson talking with each other as they were looking at shirts.

Play the song above now.

Julie and I decide to make our way over to the boys, just as we were approaching I saw these two girls checking them out and now they were making their way over to them. They were closer so they got there sooner than us. They were all over them. I felt slightly insecure as I watched one of them make moves on Grayson. She's absolutely gorgeous, she's an actual model.

"Oh look at this." Julie stopped and my focus broke off the boys.

I have to trust Grayson.
I can't get too jealous.

"I'm buying this for myself!" Julie said. I laughed softly as I couldn't get the situation out of my head.

"What's wrong?" She asked.
"Nothing, just overthinking." I said as I quickly glanced over at them and I saw the girl getting touchy with Grayson. I looked away and swallowed the lump in my throat.

"About?" Julie asked as she's looking for her size.
"Just life in general, not sure if I'm doing anything right." I said as sadness settled in my voice.

"Are you happy?" Julie asked as she stopped and looked at me.

I think to myself.

I mean, I'm happy right?
I'm engaged to the love of my life and my son is happy. I live where I've always dreamed of. But I'm not sure anymore, It's so far from home and everyone.

"What's wrong?" Julie asked.
"I'm not sure, I just." I stop as I hear laughter coming from the twins and the girls.

Both of our heads turned towards them.

I felt myself just shrink, I felt so little. I just wanted to go home.

"Let's go see what's funny." Julie said as we started walking towards them.

Once Julie approached the boys, the girls seemed thrown off. I stood behind Julie. Grayson didn't seem to care, that's what hurt the most.

"Are you guys all done?" Julie asked the boys.
"Yeah, are you Gray?" Ethan asked.

He was busy talking to the girl.

I just want to go home. I don't want to deal with this. My insecurities are dragging me down.

"Grayson." Julie said sternly.
"Yeah?" His head turned towards her.

I walked away.
I decided to go outside and catch some air.

I shut my eyes tightly as I held my tears. My head was held by my hands as I sat down.

What if Grayson doesn't like me? He probably doesn't like me anymore. He's going to leave me. I think he's tired of me, I would be tired of myself as well.

"Hey." I hear a familiar voice call.
I look up and see it's Ethan.

"What's wrong?" He asked and sat next to me.
"Nothing, I'm okay." I said weakly.

"Ashley you know you're lying." He said as he held me closely. I wanted to cry in his arms, but I can't do that. I'll annoy him too.
"I'm fine Ethan, I'm just stressed and want to go home." I said as I got up, he followed.

Before he can say anything, Julie came out with Liam. Grayson came out with the two girls.

"I want to go home." I said as Julie approached us. I grabbed Liam and held him as I start walking back to the car.

I'm so insecure. That girl is absolutely gorgeous. I would never be that stunning. Grayson deserves better.

I felt tears sliding down my face.
"Mommy why are you crying?" Liam asked innocently.

"I'm just tired baby." I said as I wiped the tears away. He didn't say anything, he just hugged me.

Once we all got in the car. I sat in the back with Liam and Ethan, Julie sat in the front.

"What's wrong?" Ethan whispered into my ear and I felt Grayson's eyes watch us through the mirror. I shook my head and held Liam close, he fell asleep.

"Do you guys want something to eat?" Grayson asked.
"I'm starving." Julie said.

They decided what they want to eat, I'm not hungry.

"I'll go pick it up." Ethan said as he took off his seatbelt as we arrived to the place.
"I'll go with you." I said quickly as I grabbed his arm and he looked at me. I felt Grayson's eyes stare at my hand that's on Ethan's arm.

I need to get out of this car.
I need to go cry.