Beyond Dead ~ Kurt and Blaine

Chapter 12

Blaine walks into the foyer and waits. He doesn't see Kurt or hear anything. He wants to call out but is too scared no one will answer him back. Finally he gives in and softly calls out Kurt's name. 

There is a scuffling in the living room and then, “Blaine?”

Blaine feels like a heavy weight falls off of his shoulders, he feels light and giddy with relief. That's Kurt's voice. Kurt is still here. Then the guilt hits him. Kurt is still here.

Blaine rounds the corner and sees Kurt sitting on the couch, arms resting on his knees, hands clasped together as he looks up at Blaine.

“You're home.”

“You're still here.”

“Did you see my dad?” Kurt asks his eyebrows raised.

“I saw him.” Blaine rubs a hand down his face. “It went really well actually, I was able to tell him everything we'd planned. He... He's a great guy Kurt.”

“But I'm still here.” Kurt said in a small voice.

“I am so sorry.” Blaine walks towards the couch and sits down. Kurt is stiff and unmoving beside him. Blaine puts an arm around Kurt's shoulders, but still he doesn't move.

“How is he?” Kurt finally asks.

“He seemed good. I saw a picture on his desk with Carol and Finn. They all seemed to being doing well. He misses you. Of course he misses you. He wasn't angry with you or anything, just sad. He was sad he wasn't there for you in the end. I...” Blaine shook his head to try to clear his thoughts. “He really loves you.”

Kurt took a deep breath and leaned on Blaine's shoulder. “I'm glad you got to talk to him. It means more to me than I can say. Thank you Blaine.”

“Of course.”

“I guess that wasn't my unfinished business. Or... I don't know, maybe Camille was wrong.”

Blaine just wrapped his other arm around him and leaned his head against Kurt's.

“At least I have you. Blaine I was so nervous when you left.” Kurt said with a hitch in his voice. “I hated the thought of never seeing you again.”

Blaine kissed him gently on his temple, “I feel so guilty that I'm happy I still have you.”

Kurt smiled a little and pulled back from Blaine's embrace to look at him. “Don't feel guilty. You did everything I asked. It just wasn't what we thought it would be. This means I have more time with you and we can try to figure out what to do next.” Kurt paused and then added nervously. “That is if you want to keep helping me. I know it isn't your responsibility or anything and-”

“Kurt.” Blaine interrupted. “I will always do whatever I can to help you. We aren't giving up.”

Kurt turned towards Blaine and leaned in giving Blaine's lips a slow kiss. “I hope you don't think I want to leave you.” He said his nose bumped up against Blaine's. “I hate the thought of not seeing you every day. Of not being a part of your life but I can't I just can't stay here.”

“Because of Sebastian?”

Kurt glanced away for a moment towards the hallway that lead to the stairs. “That is a huge part of it but that isn't all. I don't belong here anymore Blaine. I can feel it, like... like I am trespassing.”

“This house is as much yours as it is mine.” Blaine answered.

“No, not in this house. I feel like I'm trespassing in this world. This isn't right, this isn't what's supposed to happen after you die. I can feel it Blaine. I can't keep going like this or I'll... I don't know. I'll just fade to nothing.”