To All the Boys I've Loved B4... And to the Almosts and What Could've Been(s)

Antonio.

you've never noticed me.

never saw me in the hallways,

given me, a second glance 

looked at me even.

it's worse looking at you now,

knowing i'm nothing to you,

just someone in the crowd.

i guess it was not meant to be,

i may never be the girl who has a chance at you noticing,

maybe even a chance at love.

it hurts more knowing that you have a girl of your own now,

and you look at her with such awe,

that i wish you'd given me,

and that breaks my heart even more.

i wanted to be the one snuggle inside your big football jacket

when i got cold.

have you hold me with such protection,

while we walked hand in hand in huge crowds.

i heard you go on and off with girls,

and i don't want to be one of them,

but it still hurts like hell,

watching you with each and every one of them.

but this poem to you,

is meant to end all this one-sided love,

so, goodbye.