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•Anima•
My anxiety levels were out of control as I walk through the crowded hallways of my ghetto ass school, my eyes were glued to the floor. i was trying to find my classroom since I had a schedule change, I don't know whose in my classes now so I guess we're going to have to find out...
This is going to be a long day...
I feel everyone stare while I walk down the hallway, I didn't want to look up and see a bunch of people staring at me and make my anxiety double in size.
As I'm walking I bump into someone causing me to look up and who I bumped into it was nahmir and I was you relieved
"Hey mir"I say loosening up a bit while giving a slight smile
"Wassup Nima"he said pulling me into a hug
I hugged him back and inhaled deeply ,
I sigh as I exhale
"Where are the girls?" I asked nahmir
"I'm not sure" he says ,while we walk side by side
I stop as I spot magnolia and Isabella arguing with Geneva ,Brielle,nelli,Renee and Mia I didn't want to get close since I was scared they were going to say or do something to me
Nahmir stops and turns to me "come on your gonna be fine , they won't do anything to you in front of us"he says extending him arm to put it on my shoulder
We slowly walk towards them and stop next to magnolia and Isabella
"yo what's going on?"nahmir says in a annoyed tone questioning the situation
"None of your fucking business" Mia snapped back with attitude
"Ay shut the fuck up you fucking troll"nahmir says furrowing his eyebrows
Magnolia ,Isabella and I started laughing
Mia was embarrassed ...
"Nigga you shouldn't even be talking looking like a whole used dirty ass mop bitch"
"Don't even get me fucking started with you Geneva"nahmir said eye siding her with a dead serious expression
"You ain't gonna say shit"she provoked
"Yeah Ight"he says shaking his head
"Exactly you see you still ain't gonna do shit"
"Bitch shut yo hoe as up bruh nobody wanna hear a goddamn thing from your fucking mouth,probably got stds n shit"he says annoyed
"First of all I'm not a hoe and second of all I don't have stds"she tried to explain
"First of all shut the fuck up second of all everyone already know you a hoe bitch ,ain't no arguing anymore"he says
I was kinda giggling at the situation
"Why the fuck are you laughing huh?you the only fucking hoe here bitch"Geneva threatened
I immediately stop laughing as the bulling was going to start happening soon
"Don't talk to her her like that bitch"Isabella said mean mugging tf outta her
"First of all I never told you to fucking speak"Geneva says
"Shut the fuck up already before I expose yo hoe ass"nahmir threatens as he mean mugged her
"Like the fuck you are I hope you fucking try because.you.aint.gonna.do.jack.fucking.shit.to.her"renee chimes in
"Shut the fuck up with yo big ass head no neck dwarf ass"he mean mugged
"Yo let's just go ,these hoes ain't worth our fucking time bro"nahmir shook his head clearly tired and annoyed of this stupid ass situation
He walked off as me magnolia and Isabella followed
•••
Looking at my schedule I walk into the classroom as my anxiety creep on me when I felt everyone's eyes on me
I quickly walk to the back and st down putting on my hoodie examining the classroom and the people In it
Geneva walked in with jahseh and stokeley...
I put my head down as I really didn't want people to acknowledge my presence in the classroom
They sat in the back too, in this class I didn't have nahmir,Isabella,or magnolia so it was up to me to defend myself which I'm not so good at .
I have social anxiety and it was caused by childhood trauma which makes it harder to stand up for myself,I'm so used to the abuse
And it's killing me.
I noticed Geneva sitting on jahsehs lap but she got off and bent down
"Hold on not here,let's go to the bathroom"I hear faintly since he whispered
With my head still down I felt a tap on my shoulder
"Yo"I lift my head up and see stokeley
I know this sounds stupid but I honestly didn't know how to respond
I tried to ignore my anxiety hoping that I can grow a little more courage
"So you not finna say shit back?"he says with a 'wtf ' face expression
"S-s-sorry"i say trying to ignore the fear and anxiety i had
"You still st-st-sTuTtErInG"
He said mocking my problem
I looked at him and quickly looked down
"I c-Can-can't really c-control it"I say looking at him and looking back down again with a disappointing face
"Ight "he says shrugging
Jah and neva walk back into class and sit down I put my head back down hoping Geneva didn't notice but it was too late because jahseh already noticed me
"Oh shit isn't that Amina or some shit like that?"jah says
"Mmhm"Geneva says mean mugging me
"M-my na-name is anima not Amina" I corrected surprised with the amount of courage that took me although I really just wanted to crawl in a hole and die .
"Oh shit you getting bold now that your little fucking foursome isn't here huh?" Geneva said taunting me ,I was going to say something but i kept stuttering and the words just didn't come out
"Huh? What was that ?"she said holding her hand to her ear like if she's trying to hear something as continued she to taunt me
"Now the little hoe can't speak huh? Your gonna end up just like your crackhead mom"she says laughing
"I-I'm n-n-not a h-hoe" i saw lowly clearly loosing
"Of course you aren't because your sooo fucking innocent right? But let me tell you something I will slap the shit out of you if you keep responding to me like that , I deadass will"she threatened
Jahseh was on his phone ,he didn't even care .
"Damn vro chill the fuck out neva "Stokeley says to Geneva
"Vro just leave her"jahseh said to Geneva
"Leave HERRR??" She says
"Yeah was that so hard to understand?" Jahseh says
I sigh and get up as I felt my eyes start to tear indicating that I was about to cry
I put my hoodie over my head and grabbed my book bag, I walk out of the classroom and I enter the bathroom , I go into the handicap stall which was the biggest one in the bathroom ,I just sit there rethinking my life while wiping tears off my face
I hear someone enter the bathroom calling my name
It was Geneva...
I stay quiet until she grabs my legs and pulls me from out of the stall
I hit my head in the floor really really hard
She grabs me
"You know what , I change my mind I prefer
To beat your ass now." She says
@:this is probably the longest chapter I've ever made so enjoy <3
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