Jason Swan-Alice cullen

Chapter 3

I walked around for hours trying to clear my head and trying to think of a way to tell isa that i would be deployed soon, but every situation made me want to hit something, i had said goodbye to my little sister too often and now i may not come back but if i do i wont be going back so if i make it out alive im gonna ask to be discharged.

Two weeks later
I still hadnt told isa that im leaving in three weeks every time i try i see the look in her eyes that tell me shes waiting for the moment i tell her and its breaking me, today however i nearly killed edward, Isa found put about the life they live and i never wanted her to be in the supernatural world ever but now that edward is her mate i cant keep her from knowing him but i can hurt him which i wont becaue alice wont let me.

Alice the tiny vampire girl that has captured my heart, i found out a few days ago tht her and adaliade were actually related and becuase alice saw visions and then let addie see them them were both sent to a mental institute and there they became vampires all they remeber is that they are siblings. Over the past few weeks i had grown close to Alice, addie and jasper but what i couldnt do is fall in love even though i have, i cant tell her because im leaving and if i die i want her to move on and not cry over me but i wonder just how hard that will be

Today edward was taking Isa to meet his family and i was sat in the living room with jasper and Addie opposite me and alice with her head in my lap.
"have you told her yet" jasper asked
i tensed and looked down for a miute and saw the love in alice' eyes and i ran my fingers through her hair, the first time i did it came as a suprise to her family because if anyone else did it she'd hurt them but when i did it, it relaxed her.
"No, every time i try and tell her she tells me how happy she is that im home and how happy she is that im gonna be here for, prom and her birthday, christmas and graduation." i sighed " but ill have to tell her soon cause im leavinf sooner than expected" i said and the rest of their family stopped cooking and looked at me
"when are you leaving" Esme asked concerened, she had grown to see me as a son and i a second mother.
"friday" i whispered knowing they could all hear me, all four women gasped and clung to their mates and alice gripped my hand
"thats in three days, why are you going early" Alice her voice breaking
"because im getting deployed monday" i said and stood up and walked out the back door, i walked into the forest and stopped a few seconds later jasper joined me.

"its not just Isa im leaving this time, its her" i said knowing jasper was the only one that could hear me
"alice" he said and i nodded
"i tried not to fall for her knowing im leaving and may not return but she made it so hard and it kills me that i have to leave her a lone in this world where people think shes a freak because of what she sees"
"she wont be alone jason, i will look after her like i have with both the girls since they found me and when you return and i know you will you can start you life off with her"
"thank you jasper" i said
"what for" he asked
"everything you know what ots like leaving those you love and your not sugarcoating everything, im glad to have you as a friend"
"the same goes for you, im not affected by your blood and for once i can have a human friend without wanting to kill them"

We both chuckled and went back to the house, thankfully isa wasn't here yet so I walked in to see Alice dancing around the kitchen and around her family with them all laughing, I looked at jasper and he smirked, jasper ran to Addie and grabbed her as I grabbed Alice and we both began to dance with the women we loved.

"Promise me something" alive whispered with her head on my chest
"Anything" I whispered back, we both knew everyone could hear us but neither of us cared
"Come home, fight and come home" she said looking up at me
I looked in her eyes and could see the fear and the love,
"I'll always come home to you Alice, no matter what" I whispered as we stopped dancing and I took her in my arms and held her tightly kissing her head.

I watched as isa walked in and smiled at me and Alice, after introductions were done, I let go of Alice and took isa by the hand and sat down on the sofa, I knew the others were listening in,
"Please don't say it" she whispered
"I'm so sorry isa, I want to stay, I want to be here but I can't" I said
She began to cry so I took her in my arms and held her
" I promise you isa this is the last time I will ever say goodbye to you once this time is done I'm done, I've got to much to live for little sister" I smiled
She smiled and looked to the kitchen
"Alice, you love her" she asked
"More than anything, but I can't be selfish, if I don't make it I can't have her morning me she deserves better"
"She's deserves you jace, when do you leave" she asked
"Friday" I said

"I need you to promise me something" I said looking at my sister
"What"
"Make sure she isn't sad, make sure people are nice to her" I said
She nodded

She went with Edward to explore the house as I sat with the rest of the Cullen family and talked, Alice was curled into my side and I knew then I would find a way to come home, I would find away back to my little pixie.