Him

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I safely landed in La the following weekend and I headed over to Ethan's. It was weird knowing I was gonna be there for a whole week instead of just one night.

No.. it was weird knowing that instead of going to his flight to see him for 5 minutes, I was actually going to his house in the hills. Crazy how fast the night changes.

When I got there it was just like last time. I got butterflies waiting for him to open the door, when he opened it, he smiled big.

"Yoooo wussup?" As he comes in for a hug.

"What's poppin, long time no see" I joke as we walked to his room.

We get to talking but I mentally drift from the conversation. I start trying to think of signs that he might be gay. I mean I haven't been looking for any because I just wanted to focus on building our friendship but now I just... I really want him.

I need to start looking for clues so that when/if I do try making a move I won't look completely stupid.

Now hear me, I am aware we've only hung out together once and he's only been following me on Instagram for about a month now. But, he's been apart of my life for the last 2 years. We've interacted so much and he's been able to provide me with so much happiness and tranquility both directly and indirectly over this past year.

This isn't just a sudden thing, and I don't feel like I'm rushing anything. I just, I want him to know my true intentions.

Yes a friendship is one, but I want him to know my long term goal with him though I'm not sure how to do it. I'm debating on directly asking him about it or if I should throw him hints that I'm interested in being more than just friends.

But I mean, we're barely friends yet. I don't want to do something stupid to tick him off. Especially so soon.

I Come back to reality and realize that Grayson has entered the room. He's staring at me and so is Ethan. I assume he must've greeted me while I was deep in my thoughts and now they're staring at me waiting for my response.

"Oh my gosh sorry. Hi gray" hastily getting up to hug him.

"How are you?" I ask, although in all honestly I don't really care.

"I'm good. I see you and Ethan are all buddy buddy now. Not that I didn't see it coming after how much he talks about you *wink wink*"

"Stoppp" I say stretching out every single letter in the word.

I look back at Ethan who's rolling his eyes so far back his pupils disappeared there for a short point in time.

"Well I'm gonna let you guys do you. I'm going to sams house for a few days so I'll see you guys when I come back" he says as he walks out Ethan's room.

From the corner of my eye I can see Ethan staring at me as i watch Grayson walk away. I turned around and went to lay on Ethan's bed.

"Ethan stop looking at me" I say in mild embarrassment.

"I'm not looking at you, I'm looking through you". Laughing as he moves over to the same side of the bed I'm sitting on to be beside me.

He's literally such a kid, but I love him so I kind of have to deal with it.

"You're so mellow when you're at home"

"Yeah..well gray isn't here much like that and you seem like a chill dude so I don't feel like acting extra around you. It's kind of nice to just relax and talk to someone for once instead of acting like a goof all the time" he explains as he makes a failed attempt to make eye contact with me since I'm staring at the ceiling.