𝗳𝗹𝗶𝗿𝘁. ʲᵘⁿᵏʸᵘ

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[soojin]

“happy birthday to you! happy birthday to you! happy birthday, happy birthday! happy birthday to you~”

12am. saturday. ginising ako ni kuya junhyung at junkyu ng happy birthday song.

“happy 18th birthday, my love!” sigaw ni junkyu at niyakap ako kahit nakahiga. landi na nga dugyot pa. di pa ako nagtotoothbrush!

“tama na yan! blow mo na yung candle, baby, mauubos na to.” sabi ni kuya junhyung.

sana maging okay na lahat. sana wala na along feelings kay kyu, sana mahalin ko na ng tuluyan si zach. sana.

hinipan ko ang candle at nagpasalamat sakanila.

“thank you!” sabi ko at niyakap silang dalawa.

“wait lang! tatawag pala sila tito at tita!”

kinuha ni kyu ang cellphone niya at in open ang face time. nakita ko don ang mukha ng magulang ko at magulang ni kyu. magkaiba ang time ng states at korea kaya mukha hapon palang don.

“happy birthday, anak!” bati nila. “thank you po, ma, pa.”

“nandito ang tito at tita mo, gusto ka rin batiin.” tinapat ni papa ang camera sa mama at papa ni Kyu at binati ako.

“happy birthday, anak, enjoy kayo sa party ha!” sabi ng mama ni kyu.

“sendan niyo kami ng pictures!” sigaw ni mama mula sa likod.

“opo, ma!”

“osige na, aalis na rin kami. happy birthday ulit!” pinatay nila ang tawag at muli akong nakaramdam ng antok.

“ilagay ko lang tong cake sa ref, matulog na ulit kayo, babyahe kayo bukas.” sabi ni kuya Junhyung at hinalikan ako sa noo.

“happy birthday, jin.” bulong niya. sana all may kuya!

humiga ulit ako sa kama at umupo naman sa gilid ko si junkyu.

“ano gusto mong birthday gift?” tanong niya.

“kantahan mo ako hanggang sa makatulog ulit ako.” sagot ko.

“yun lang pala eh,” humiga rin siya sa tabi ko at pinatong ang ulo ko sa braso niya.

kinikilig ako—wait lang! tangina, may boyfriend ako!

I was too dumb to notice
That there's something about you
What am I supposed to do?
I sure wish I knew

All the butterflies I felt inside
Never really mattered
Wishful thoughts and sudden smiles
Ended being shattered

What are we supposed to be
I'm hopelessly addicted to you
But you never felt the same

Time may pass us
By but you stay stuck on my mind
And that moment we stared
That night I thought it was right
But maybe I was wrong all along

I held onto something that never really mattered
Stuck on that starting line
I'm still silently quietly hoping
You'll end up with me

That—that song? I'm imagining that i made that, made for you, for us.

hoping you'll end up with me.