Overdrive || JJK (M)

Chapter 06

It had been two weeks since you'd last seen Jungkook. You'd woken up snuggled in your bed, under the sheets, dressed completely in the clothes you'd been wearing before.

And alone.

At first, your heart had warmed at the thought of Jungkook having driven you home and tucked you safely into your bed, but then you realized the truth of what situation you were currently in.

You couldn't say it, not even to yourself, so you'd taken to avoiding Jungkook. But it turned out to be easier than you thought it would be, especially since he seemed to have come to the same conclusion as you, and you felt empty. That was the only way you could describe it; it was like a piece of you had been ripped out and nothing else could fill the void, could stop the churning in your gut.

You spent time with Jimin and with Joy, always leaving whenever she mentioned that Jungkook would be coming home soon and avoiding places he might be—especially when you'd heard girls giggling about the handsome new guy in town who said he was just visiting for a few days.

Your cheeks had felt hot with embarrassment, having thought stupidly that he'd stay for you, that he'd give up his entire world for you. You might be soulmates, but that didn't simply take away all of your problems or the situation that you and Jungkook were stuck in.

It was better to just pretend nothing existed between the two of you. It was easier that way, even if it left your chest aching and your fingers trembling from his absence.

And now you were sat alone in Joy's living room, the movie you had been watching paused like it had been for the past forty minutes. You checked your phone but saw no messages from her—she'd left in a hurry, saying she needed to feed but that she wanted to hunt for animals that were in the woods behind the house.

The door slid open and you perked up, setting your phone down after replying to Jimin's text about hanging out later in the week.

"Hey, I was wondering when you would get back. I was about to finish the movie without you—" You cut yourself off when you looked up from your seat, meeting Jungkook's wide eyes instead of his sister's. "Um," you said intelligibly, unable to stop yourself from taking in every inch of him.

"Uh, hi," he responded. An awkward silence filled the air between the two of you and you couldn't help but feel drawn to him, couldn't help but want to go up to him and hold him close.

"I heard you're leaving soon," you said tightly.

Jungkook nodded his head a few times. "Yeah, that's the plan. I have to tell my friend Yoongi that I didn't find Joy here so that no one else comes after her. But, uh, yeah... I should be gone in a few days."

"That's good for you guys," you replied, your heart beating hard in your chest. The air in here was suddenly stifling and you bit the inside of your cheek.

Jungkook sighed. "What do you want from me?" he asked suddenly, his voice tired.

"I don't want anything from you," you told him. The both of you knew you were lying, the tremor in your voice revealing the truth even if you didn't want to.

"You're human," he said flatly. "And I'm a vampire. No matter what happens between us, this can never work, not like it's supposed to."

"I know," you said numbly, hands clenching into fists at your sides.

"I can't love you like you want me to," he continued, voice like steel.

You bit your lip hard enough that you tasted copper. You couldn't bring yourself to look at him, head ducked down. "I know," you whispered.

"You're better off just forgetting that you even met me."

Your eyes felt wet and you stood up abruptly, grabbing your phone and bag. You paused briefly, still unable to look at Jungkook, who was standing just a few feet away. "You want me to forget?" you asked hotly, voice shaking. "Then consider yourself forgotten."

You shoved past him, taking care not to touch any part of him as you went, and just hoped that he couldn't hear your heart breaking in your chest.

And when you got home in one piece, eyes full of tears and throat tight, you ran up to your room and cried into your pillow, the ache in your chest spreading to the rest of your body until you could no longer remember what the sparks even felt like.