So ive been really depressed lately..ill explain why.
I just spent a few days down in Arkansas with my [abusive] mom. Shes gotten better but when she looses her temper its really bad.
For gods sakes she yelled at me for asking her where to put some food because we ran out of room in the small ass fridge and the outside fridge was stuffed with drinks.
On a better note she tooo me to get clothes, i got boy shoes and boyish clothes. She rolled her eyes when i told her about being dysphoric about my chest and wanting a binder. So im not getting a binder and i have to live with using sports bras. But i got a boy brief [basically a girls boxer] and ot lowkey makes me look like i have a dick so that makes me happy.
On another bad note i feel like an absolutely shitty friend to both ny online and offline friends. I don't want to cry at the moment so im just not gonna talk about that.
Im really close to cutting. I cant help it. Im sorry if i do.
