I shove the words back down my throat
And do not let them show
I let the words drift to my head
To deal with them alone
Tears fill my eye
I force them back
Because I feel if I show them
My image will then crack
I must keep it in
Hold back the things
Though they have snapped
Most of the strings
I want to let them out
But a whisper cries, 'no!'
So I force them back
I have nowhere to go
The beast is clawing
Tearing me apart
Dream by dream, hope by hope
For it is me it had outsmart
The beast is the one who whispers
Who make me hold it back
Because for every time I resist
It sharpens it's attack
Every word held back
Every emotion burry deep
Burns itself onto the beast
Making it grow big, making me weep
I'm held hostage by the beast
That I helped grow
But now I fear
It will never let me go.
