Is This My Life?(Completed)

Week 5

Monday:

        "What has happened to my life?" I just keep repeating this over and over as I see the shirtless Nathan holding himself over my trembling frame. His arms are on either side of my head, his hands holding my wrists up, his face right above mine, and his legs are roughly pushing down on mine to keep me perfectly still.        

        He laughs as he leans down and whispers into my ear, "Oh, how I've missed this, Harley. I used to have to wait until I'd come back on business from New York, but now you're actually in my house." I shudder as I fight to hold back tears. "We can have fun like this every night, Harley. And I don't have to share you with anyone. You're all mine."

        It takes everything I have not to scream out for Kimberly. But I know... I know it would just crush her to find out what her husband is doing behind closed doors... Only four doors down from their bedroom, in fact. As I stare up into Nathan's terrifying face, I can't help but let out, "Why...?" My voice was barely above a whisper, and Nathan is completely taken aback by my speaking. Normally, I wouldn't make a single sound while they did these things to me. But this time, I couldn't hold back my question. I mean, he's such a good father! He obviously loves his kids... Why would he turn into someone like this?

        He pulls his head back a bit to stare into my eyes  as he replies to me in a low, husky, disturbing voice, "Well. It all started when your Daddy decided to sell your body off when you were seven," I flinch. I never knew he sold me... Somehow, that actually makes me feel a bit worse... "Of course, being his friend, I got a discount," I flinch as I remember the first time I ever met Nathan... It was also the night I lost my virginity. It was the worst night of my life.

Nine years ago

        I can hear Mommy screaming at Daddy... I don't know what she's mad about, but she always screams at him whenever he hits me. I don't know why, though, Daddy said I deserve it. He said I'm a "worthless child who ruined the family". Mommy screamed at him when he told me that, too...

         I hear somebody walking to my room, but I know it's not Mommy or Daddy, because I still hear them yelling. I sit up in my bed and hug my pillow against my chest. I start getting really scared as somebody opens my door up really, really slowly...

        I feel better when I see that it's Daddy's friend, Mr. Nathan. I met him earlier today, and I heard Daddy telling him that we'd get to play! I smile happily as I put the pillow back in it's place and stand up on my knees, staring hopefully at the man, "Are you here to play?!" I see Mr. Nathan smile as he closes my door behind him, then walks over to my bed. "That's right, Harley. And do you know what we're going to play?" I put my finger to my chin and scrunch up my nose as I think, "Um... Can we play with my dolls?!" I point over to the two little paper dolls I'd made in art class; my only toys.

        Mr. Nathan shakes his head as he puts his hands on my shoulders, "Nope, not dolls." I narrow my eyes slightly while in deep thought, trying to figure out what we're going to play. When I can't figure it out, I look up at him in utter confusion, "What are we gonna play, then?" I see his smile again, and suddenly his face starts to scare me.

        I try pulling away from his hands, but he wouldn't have it. He pushes me down against my bed hard, then grabs both my wrists in one hand and puts them above my head. From the pain and fear, I start to whimper and cry, "W-What are you d-doing?" Mr. Nathan laughs then leans down and licks up from my shoulder to my jaw, before releasing my wrists only long enough to pull my pajama shirt off.

        I try to scream, but he stuffs my shirt into my mouth, muffling it and making it a bit hard for me to breathe. Where are Mommy and Daddy? What is Daddy's friend doing to me?