Put the song when I tell you ;3
WARNING!!!!!!. mention of self-harm and a suicide attemp watch at your own risk you can skip if you want.
I started to walk out of the infermary, it was a bit cold and it looked like it was about to rain, but rain cant enter camp, so I just looked up, then I remembered what my mom always told before getting beaten up by her 'never care about anyone, caring is a disadvantage' and for the first time in my life It started to get a little bit of sense, I felt so hopless, I was falling for Will and that would get me killed, caring will make me worry about him, mabye in a fight or flight situation I might do something stupid for him, I silently started vrying and walking towards the Poseidon cabin, a few of the girls sked me what was wrong but i just ignored them and kept walking until i reached the Poseidon cabin, i entered and sat down in my bed
START THE MUSICCCC
I float in a boat
In a raging black ocean
Low in the water
With no where to go
The tiniest lifeboat
With people I know
i look around to fing my razor, 'do not care (Y/N) love is stupid' and with that i did my first cut, but today i was not going to try to cover them up, heck i was going to stop living
Cold, clammy, and crowded
The people smell desperate
We'll sink any minute
So someone must go
The tiniest lifeboat
With the people I know
All the people i know are only faking they love or care about me, im no one , i dont deserve to be here.
Everyone's pushing
Everyone's fighting
Storms are approaching
There's nowhere to hide
If I say the wrong thing
Or I wear the wrong outfit
They'll throw me right over the side
I was the one who must leave the camp, i made it weaker, i was its weak spot, if i did not go hunderds of people would die because i will slow them down, i dont want to be thrown over the side.
I'm hugging my knees
And the captain is pointing
Well who made her captain?
Still, the weakest must go
The tiniest lifeboat
Full of people I know
The tiniest lifeboat
Full of people I know
i grab the pill vottle from the nightstand, the weakest must go, i kept repeating that frase over and over until finally i managed to put the whole botthle in my mouth, thre where not that many anymoe, mabye like 10 or 15 pills, but enough to kill me.and then i saw him, Will was standing in the door shocked, he started running towards me when i swallowed the pills and then everything went black, i started regretting trying to die, Will actually cared for me. Im regretting doing this.
