What happened...

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Were you really there when it all happened?
Were you in the shadows of the large gray building wondering how I was?
Were you there when I made me speech about how he was when he was still alive?

I never saw you that day
I kept looking around, droplets of sweat forming on my back, waiting to see you
What happened that day that made you not be able to come?
Did you even have anything to do?
Or nothing

I felt alone, so very much
Why couldn't you just come and wrap your arms around me and say,"don't worry now everything is all right"?
I needed you that day, more than I could ever believe
I once felt light when I think of your name
But now when I think of your name I feel nothing,
Absolute nothing...

Just why....
Just why didn't you show up
Was it because of me
Or was it you?
Please tell me I want to now so this burning feeling can disappear

Did you feel anything when he left?
Did you feel anything when he took that step that costed him everything?
Did you feel anything when he disappeared over the ledge?
Did you feel anything when I ran to him, to the ledge?
Did you feel anything when I screamed and cried?
Did you feel anything when you stood there,
Not doing anything?
Absolutely nothing?

It was not your fault
It was not your fault
It was not your fault

It was not your fault you made him step off that ledge.
It just can't be!
No matter what it just can't be!

You made him do it
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you

You made him disappear forever.
You made him step off that ledge.

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