Finding Myself

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TJ P.O.V

I can't believe what I heard. Kaycee my first girl best friend and I can't live with myself knowing a big secret like. What I don't understand is why would they do that. Yes I know they explained and all, but for some reason I don't believe any of them. What do I do now?

I will admit. I like Pixie alot and when they told me all i wanted to do is bash Kyrell head in. Yes I was jealous and I still am because I wanted that to be me kissing her. Not anyone else. Sure she might have had boyfriends in New Zealand, but that doesn't matter because she is here.

Fuck what am I gonna do. During my crisis I felt my phone sometime vibrate and I checked the ID. I was shocked to see who it was that is calling. I answered straight away because well to get a call from them. Well it's a miracle.

"Hey Kayc".
"Hey TJ".
"How are you doin?"
"I'm good. But that's not why I called and I think you know why I called".
"That's good and girl i think your gonna have to elaborate because I have no idea what ya mean".
"Well I called because I want to know what's going with Kyrell and Pixie".

I panicked because I don't know if they told her. Maybe I should just text Pixie just in case. Nah scratch that I will just ask her what she means.

"What do you mean what's going on with them?"
"I mean what are they up to because I tried ringing them both, but none of them picked up the phone".
"Oh and I don't know. I'm not with them. Maybe they are asleep. I mean it is pretty late here".
"Yeah true. I guess I didn't think about that. I keep forgetting we are in different time zones haha".
"Haha indeed. So how is New Zealand treating you? Do you miss America?"
"New Zealand is treating great. It feels so nice to be home and honestly I don't miss America, but I miss you guys alot. I miss my aunty and Pixie and Dawn the most though".
"That's good and aw I'm pretty they miss more than ever. The house is probably quite without you hahahaha".
"Heeeeeeeey! I'm not that noisy".
"Let's be real. You are really noisy".
"Fucking bastard. I miss this. Being able to have these conversations with everyone especially you. You know no matter where or how far apart we are you will always be my best guy friend".

I just had to smile. She trusts me more than anyone and this is how I betray her, but she will understand because she knows what it's like to be stuck in my position. Hopefully she understands.

"Aw thanks girl. I will probably sound like a girl, but I don't give a fuck. Fuck i miss you so much and wish you were here. Things have been fucked up since you left and so many mistakes have been happening".
"What do you mean mistakes? What kind of mistakes are you talking about?"
"I gave you an awesome speech about me missing you and pouring my heart and all you hear is mistakes. Gosh I'm feeling the love right here". I say over the phone sarcastically.
"Oh stop being a drama queen. You know I appreciate everything you said and I really wish I didn't have to go, but I needed time away because the sudden move to America just threw me of guard and I wasn't ready. Even though I tried convincing myself I was".
"Oh that makes more sense".
"Yeah aha. Now tell me what you meant by mistakes".

Fuck what am I gonna do now.

"Oh would you look at that. Oh my God is that the time already. Sorry girl it's getting late and my mum is expecting me home now. Bye girl luv ya". After I said that I hung up and sighed. Fuck that was close.

I took my phone out again and scrolled through my contacts until I found who I was looking for.

Dickhead 🖕

TJ: u fuckn dick betta tell Kayc bc I just got of the phone wit her and she is startn 2 get suspicious.

Dickhead 🖕 1st go fuck yourself and 2nd ur not my mother and 3rd calm your man tits we r thinkn of wat 2 say 2 her.

Tj: well think faster bc idk how long i can stall and next time she calls you two. Fuckn answer you dick brains.

Dickhead 🖕 fuck u 🖕🖕

Tj: oh I bet u would luv 2, but ur shit outta luck bc I like two legged humans with pussy 😂

Dickhead 🖕 ur fuckn disgustn and yet she still has a crush on u. She has terrible taste 🤣

Tj: ur so fuckn funny. Mayb u should be a comedian. I will pay u
2 stfu.

Dickhead 🖕 even tho tht is sarcasm I appreciate u recognising my talent and algudz I will talk even more meaning even more money. Sweeeeeeet.

Tj: wateva. Btw who has a crush on me?

Dickhead 🖕 just some1 tht needs glasses.

Tj: u know u should really practice lying because u suck at it.

He just read my message and for you dumb folks out there. I know he only read it because well I have an iphone and so it tells me whether it not it has been read. You know like messenger.