Your Song = Written Chapter

Take Me To Church ~ Lams

Here you go DevilDarlingGirl

John Laurens Pov

My lover's got humor

My mother always smiled and laughed...

She's the giggle at a funeral

She laughed at my fathers funeral...

Knows everybody's disapproval

She didn't know how to cope and just laughed...

I should've worshiped her sooner

Surprisingly she's never had anyone special die in her life... Until now...

If the heavens ever did speak

When we got home from the funeral, my mother had a breakdown...

She's the last true mouthpiece

I helped her the best I could, she ranted about how much she missed him already...

Every Sunday's getting more bleak

I was always forced to go to Church...

A fresh poison each week

The only good memory I have of being there was meeting Alexander there...

"'We were born sick!' You heard them say it!" I yelled after Alex tried kissing me.

My church offers no absolutions

I was raised to learn that being gay was wrong... But... I'm gay myself...

She tells me "worship in the bedroom"

I have not ever loved a woman...

The only heaven I'll be sent to
Is when I'm alone with you

I grabbed Alex's arm an dragged him into my room...

I was born sick, but I love it

I kissed him... He kissed back...

Command me to be well

Then, my mother walked in...

Amen,

She wasn't phased by it...

Amen,

She smiled at us then left...

Amen

I then imagined what my dad would've done if he saw this...

Take me to church

I let go of Alex and curled up in a ball and cried...

Flashback

I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies

My father just finished work and was on his way home.

I'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife

My best friend/crush at the time was just leaving my house.

Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life

My father suspected something and lectured me about how sinful being gay was...