Bullied by my crush

Chapter 11

"Im pregnant" "What the fuck Roxy really" I not and sit up cash looks at mav" sooo..." I say worrying mav might be mad "What are you gonna do when the parents find out..." me and cash look at each other "we don't know yet but were not telling the fans so they shouldn't find out until well we tell them there probably just gonna think I'm getting fat so were safe" maverick smiles "well congrats guys I got to go" he gets up and leaves going outside "Holy shit cash what are we going to do what if...." he looks at me "What if what" he asks concerned "What if you leave me cash what if I don't become good enough for you and you hate me again and I'm not important to you cash what if I'm not good enough for you anymore" I mumble the last 8 words "you'll always be good enough for me" "I need to tell you something" I say standing up and running up to our room cash comes in after me "What is it" "remember in 6th grade when we had that party and you got super drunk" I say nervous "yes" "well we kinda had sex there and I got pregnant and a couple months later you started calling me fat and remember when you kicked me in the stomach" he nods "well I had a miscarriage" I say tears running down my cheeks "I'm so sorry babe" he says hugging me tightly

*this isn't gonna be a process until 4 months later*

*4 months later*

"Roxy you really need to go on a diet this isn't healthy hun" my mom says looking at me disgusted I shrug my shoulders and today me and cash have a doctor's appointment to find out the gender "bye mom" I say waving and me and cash leave and head to the hospital once we get  in our room the doctor has me lay down cash starts fidddiling with his fingers oh no "congrats it's a boy" I not and look at cash he gives me a fake smile and we head out "look roxy" cash says oh no I know what this means "My family is moving to LA and your mom told me that you guys can't come with so I th ink we should break up" i not and look down we get in the car and me and cash decide to go live "hey guys" cash says looking at the phone I cover my face with my hands

Comments
Fan1: Omg why is Roxy crying what happened

Fan2: Cash why is Roxy crying

Maverickbaker: Cash why is Roxy crying
End of comments

"You wanna tell them" I shake my head and look out the window "Roxy and I are" the car honks behind us and cash starts driving again "Breaking up"

Comments

Fan1: No why

Fan2: why childhood just died

Hater2: finally you realise she is using you

End of comments

"Where breaking up cause I am moving to LA and Rox's mom said she can't come and we figured long distance wouldn't be the best so I broke up with her" i look at the camera my eyes were red and my cheeks were tear stained "I do have some news for you guys though I'm having a baby boy and  yes cash is the father"

Comments

Maverickbaker: sorry Roxy but we had to

End of comments

*btw Roxy has depression and suicidal thoughts so yeet*

"I can't do this" I say I break down in tears and end the live "hey Roxy it's ok" cash says grabbing my hand I pull it and cry into them "WHY is my life so fucked up you were right for all there years I should be dead" I say getting out of the car *they were on the side of the road live so yeet* I run into the woods and sit by a tree and I look at it C+R with a heart around it this is the tree cash and I signed his promise to me that we would never leave each other no matter what I go live and wait until a bunch of people join  and say this "you can call me crazy and dumb but cash if your in this you were always right about one thing and that was I should be dead and to all the haters out there your wish is gonna come true tonight and I'm not doing this to get attention I'm doing this because I know it's what you want and I know that you guys want me dead and if a get a miscarriage it's not gonna be the first miscarriage I've had and I'm not telling the story cause I don't want cash to get hate but I'm letting you all no now no more posts no more live and no more vid chats with my fans cause I can't do this anymore I tried my life is tucked up and haters this is your lucky day I guess cause I'm ending it here and now and no this isn't cause of cash breaking up with me I've been wanting to do this for a while so why not do it on live no one's gonna miss me anyways" I take my pocket knife out of my pocket and hear rusling in the leaves

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"ROXY" cash runs up to me and grabs me and suddenly everything goes black

*Cash's P.O.V*

I run up to Roxy and grab her I think she passed out

*at hospital*

I run in to the hospital and get help to bring Roxy in 

* I lied I'm skipping to when Roxy is out of the hospital*

*yeet*

*Roxy point of view*

I got home a couple days ago the baker's left cash decided to end it so we don't have to do long distance and I'm 5 months pregnant I haven't been on Insta sense the day that all went down and I told cash I'm getting am abortion and he begged me not to and that he would still be apart of the babies life so I agreed and my mom knows I'm pregnant....

I walk downstairs and my mom was sitting on the couch with someone and I heard them whispering I decided to ignore them and go in the kitchen to get something to eat I turn around and see cash who left the day after the incident which was about a month ago "Hey roxy" he say smiling "Look cash I got to go I have an appointment I-"  "before you go I was told I could move in with you if that's fine with you" I run up and hug him he hugs me back "I missed you so much" i say I hear him chuckle and I go to my mom "is he actually moving in or is he staying for a bit" I ask my mom "Depends who is the father of the baby" I look down "C-Cash" "well then that answers your question he can only stay for short amounts of time and you two won't be sharing a room" I not and go to my room cash was on my bed "Roxy I heard what your mom said but I'm sort of kinda" I look at him "sort of kinda what" "in another relationship with Neven" I look down "Are you saying that your doing a long distance relationship with Neven but couldn't stay in one with me what was the point of ending it then cash" I ask hopeless and knowing Neven won't let him the baby "Neven moved to LA" I not like I understood but ngl I'm tiring on the inside "So should I get an abortion or something" "No I'm not gonna let you do that" cash says grabbing my hand and intertwining our fingers "Then what should I do cause I can't raise this baby alone cash and I already know Neven won't let you see him so what's gonna happen then he is gonna be like me  and not have a dad but at least he won't be trash like me and at least he will have friends" cash nods "You didn't let me finish I broke up with Neven cause I wanted to start dating you again Roxy" I smile as he pulls me in and kisses me passionately I kiss back and my mom bursts in I quickly pull away from cash and look at her "I have news and cash already knows it so I don't know if he told you but pick good or bad news" I look at cash "good" "the baker are moving back in" cash nods I smile "Now bad news" I say "In 4-5 years" my mom says sad "they can visit tho right" "Not until you have the baby"