The New Girl

Chapter 17

Taylor's POV

The last four days have been a big blur. Nikki's left me and she's now staying with the guys. I can't remember the last time I felt this way. My heart physically hurts. I've stayed in bed the whole time. Cameron's come to talk to me a few times but it's pointless. I'm nothing without her. I hear a knock on the door but I refuse to even try to get up. The footsteps grow louder as they get closer to the bedroom door.

"Taylor?" a small voice asks.

I immediately recognize it and jump up.

"Oh my God Nikki!"

I immediately pull her into a hug. I let her go and we sit on the bed.

"Look I'm not here to make up," she starts, "I want to know why."

I look down and shake my head.

"I don't know."

"You don't know?" she says, the anger clear in her voice.

"Nikki I'm sorry. If I could go back and take it all away I would. I'm an idiot for doing anything when I had everything I wanted right here."

"I wish you could take it back to."

We sit there in silence for a few minutes.

"Nikki?"

She looks up at me, her normally bright blue eyes hazed with tears.

"I love you," I whisper.

She just sits there and stares at me.

"And I know you probably hate me now.."

"I don't hate you," she says interrupting.

"Really?"

She nods her head yes.

"I love you Taylor."

For a minute my hopes get up but then she continues.

"But that doesn't mean I want to get back together.

"Then what do you want to do?"

It feels like forever before she finally answers.

"I think we should stay friends."

"But how can we stay friends with everything between us Nikki? Remember when we were sitting up in that tree and you asked me what I was scared of and I said nothing?"

She nods her head.

"Well you want the truth? I'm scared of loosing you. I can't even bare the thought. You mean everything to me."

A tear falls from her eye. I pull her close to me and she doesn't resist. I wipe her tears and hold her face in my hands.

"I can't loose you.."

At this point I can feel my own eyes watering.

"Do you really mean that?"

I nod my head.

"You're my everything Nichole."

"Then why?"

"Because I'm an idiot."

I hear a slight laugh come from her causing a small smile from me.

"You are," she agrees.

She crawls into my lap and leans on my chest.

"I've missed you," she mumbles.

"I've missed you too Nik. More than you know."

We sit there in quiet for about ten minutes until there's a knock on tthe door. Cameron walks in.

"Is everything good in here?" he asks and I nod.

He goes to leave but I stop him.

"Um I'm sorry for accusing you. You're one of my best friends and I should've known better."

"It's not a problem kid. If I had someone as special as her I'd be protective too."

We both look at Nikki and her cheeks are red.

"Also Cameron. Thank you for taking care of her."

He nods his head before walking out.

"So are we good now?" I ask.

"I'd say we are."

I smile and kiss her forehead.

"My love," I say and she smiles.

"My only love."