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Lost voices (1)

Request from @purplecupcakes005  ! Hopefully you enjoyed this story :) I'm sorry if it wasn't what you expected (and abit lengthy)

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Story takes place during the recording of the Map of the Soul: Persona 

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If there's one thing that BTS cannot do, it is: never taking a break until something is perfect even if it means pushing themselves to their limits just for ARMYs. There are definietky times where their hardships end up with a happily ever after. This hardship was one that not even one member had managed to do yet alone three of them at once from 2012 to 2019. 

pt 1.
wednesday

Jins POV
"That's a wrap for Dionysus and Jamais Vu, good work everyone!" Namjoon-ah announced. It felt great to be back in the recording studio. I could not wait for ARMY to here this new song. It's very different from what we normally  release. I hope they love it as much as I love my beautiful face ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  The rap line and the other producers really did an excellent job at producing these two amazing songs (a/n: im lazy to search for the actual composers and arrangers of the songs again because i forgot them alreadyy but please go with the flow. im sorryy if its extremely off)

Jungkook's POV

Wow its been so long since we have recorded anything because we just came back from the tour. It felt great. We finished two songs today already. Thankfully the recording process is not over just yet because we still have about 4 more songs to record.

"Jin hyung, you know how you've wanted you and I to work out at the gym together? Since we are done with todays schedule, do you want to go to the gym with me?" I asked.  He nodded and started to pack his things. And so did I.

As we were about to leave, I wanted to have listen to the two new songs again because they kept replaying over in my head and I could not wait till they were released to listen to time.

"Namjoon hyung! Is it possible to get the audio files to Jamais Vu and Dionysus?" I asked politely.

"Yes kooks, I'll AirDrop the files to you. Tell me when you get them. And please dont post spoilers! We want to surprise ARMY!" He replied

*notification*

"Ah, I got it! Thank You Hyung! And don't worry I want to surprise ARMY just as much as you do or maybe even more!" I excitedly replied.

And with the audios, Jin and I headed to the car to go the Gym.

Once we got in the car, I connected my phone to the car speaker and played our new songs,expecting to feel satisfied. But that was not the case. I could hear several miss pitches and it just wasn't my best recording I could do. I know I can do better. I don't want to give ARMY terrible vocals in such an amazing masterpiece. It'll just wreck the efforts of everyone else.

As I was deep in thought as the two songs were on repeat, Jin hyung drove  to the gym.

Jin's POV   

What happened to that "great" feeling I had when we were in the recording room. When Jungkook played the 2 songs, something was off. You could barely hear any emotions from my voice. Usually I get a vivid picture being painted in my mind when listeing to my verses, but this time nothing. I didn't want to admit it. But this is probably the worst recording that I've ever done. I don't want this to be the final audio. Especially for Jamais Vu, its the JJJ masterpiece but I just wrecked it. I am not worthy to work with such people. I am literally pulling them down. I must change this. I need to convince Namjoon to let me re-recored my parts again. I cannot let ARMY down.

And with that last thought, we reached the Gym.

*timeskip to driving back to the dorms after the gym*

" Jungkook-ah, is there something wrong? Or is there something bothering you? You didn't seem quite yourself back there. It's worrying me." I said, hoping for a reply.

"Erm, yeah. Actually Hyung... I.. just can't stop thinking about the songs we recorded today. It just wasn't my best. I can't help but to feel like I'm dragging the band down with my poor singing skills... I dont want to let you or ARMY down. I want to redo the songs. No not even want, I NeEd To ReDo the songs." Jungkook quietly said which ended with a voice crack on the last sentence almost as if be was about to cry. Oh wait HE IS CRYING NOOO MY BABY JUNGOO

"Jungkook-ah don't you dare think that you're a dead weight in our team. You're an essential member and we would not know where we would be without you. And about the recordings,I agree with you with the fact that it was not what we expected ourselves to perform. In all honesty, I too, feel that I was terrible in Jamais Vu especially. You're not alone ok? I'm here for you Jungkook-ah. I'm going to ask Namjoon-ah if we can redo our verses. That's the only way we can ever feel satisfied." I heartily replied. I heard several sniffles and knew that he understood what I said.

"Wait hyung, before we can record anything, we need to practice. C-can we go practice now? I really want to be ready for the do-over if we get one. I cannot bare with feeling of disappointment within me. I just can't" Jungkook spoke up after several minutes of silence.

" I would take you to the office building but we had a long day, you need your rest. Don't push yourself." I replied. All he did was nod and admit defeat, after all he was tired from schedule.

*time skip to bed time (11pm)*

"Namjoon-ah, may I come in? I need to speak to you for a minute or two. It's about today's recording. " I softly said as I opened the door to his room. He was sitting on his bed peacefully reading a book, I didn't want to wreck his peace but Jungkook's happiness was more important right now. He motioned for me to come in and so I did.

"So when Jungkook and I were listening to the audio, we did not feel satisfied with our performance. Jungkook-ah even cried over it which tells alot. He's really affected by it and he even said that because of it, he felt like a dead weight to the team. Do you think it's possible to let him record his parts again? It would mean the world to him. And also, I, may or may not feel proud of my recording this time round. I don't know, I'm just not getting that vibe that I always get. I would really want to redo my part too. If that's possible that is. ARMY deserves better. They do not deserve to get this terrible emotionless JIN and a Jungkook who doesn't feel proud of his work. Please consider this. Please."
I practically begged Namjoon. Jungkook and I need this for ARMY.

Namjoonah just nodded and whipped out his phone. After 5 minutes of awkward silence, he finally responded. " Yes, I have managed to find a slot for you two to record your parts again. It will be at 11am on Friday, which is two days from now. And please reassure Jungkookie that he is important. I do not want him to suffer from such thoughts. Poor Kookie. Also, I hope you two feel satisfied with your recordings after Friday.  If not BangPDnim will get frustrated with you too. Please work hard for Friday's recording! Fighting!"

As those words entered my ears, a sensation of relief ran through my body. We have been given permission for a do over. I said my thanks to Namjoon and went to tell Jungkook the incredible news.  But when I opened his door, it revealed a curled up bunny under his covers. It was so adorable. I thought it was better to message him than wake him. So i  exited the room and went to bed.