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by shawnsmuscles

by shawnsmuscles

good morning i'm not going to school today because i can never go all 5 days of the week, i just can't. i go to this early college high school in this little farm town thats on the outskirts of some shitty suburb city. now here's the bad part

MY SCHOOL ONLY HAS 600 KIDS. 6 MF HUNDRED!!!!!

DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO BE YOURSELF WHEN EVERYONE KNOWS WHO YOU ARE???? ITS VERY HARD !!!!

anyway bitch i've had this friend that i've known for about a year, but only recently got close to around like 8 months ago. at first i was scared of her bc i'm ugly & awkward but she's so nice & made me sit next to her everyday that we had class together and fuck🥺 let's call her uhhhhhhh,,,,,, jackie. bc she's like a sweet less annoying version of jackie from that 70s show

we talk pretty much all the time and she's so kind, polite, & funny. we never have anything to talk about yet we still talk. she's the best player on the soccer team & ugh she's a year younger than me, a sophomore🤮 but she's diskdkskxks. when i tell you my heart falls out of my ass when i see her, biTCH IT REALLY FALLS OUT OF MY ASS.

BUT GET THIS
GET IT
LISTEN
ESCUCHA

SHES THE STRAIGHTEST PERSON EVER!!!!!
AND HAS HAD THE SAME BOYFRIEND OFF AND ON FOR LIKE,,,, 3 YEARS!!!!

see and the thing is, i act like the straightest person ever too.
like i actually doubt anyone suspects anything from me, especially her because i tell her everything except, ya know, mY UNDYING LOVE FOR HER
when i tell y'all my life is a mess, i rlly mean it bitch.
we were on spring break a month ago and there's this hot senior guy and he kept hitting me up so my hoe ass let him come over when i was alone aaaaand yikes. HIM & I HAVE DOME STUFF MULTIPLE TIMES ONLY WHEN I WAS SINGLE. also IM A VIRGIN BUT BARELY. I TOLD HER ABOUT IT AND SHE'S BEEN WEIRD W ME EVER SINCE. MAYBE ITS WISHFUL THINKING BUT IDK WHAT IF SHE HAS WEIRD FEELINGS ABOUT IT SKDKSKC

she's also kinda religious & hasn't done more than kiss her bf so maybe she just doesnt wanna associate with a hoe like me idk hsjsks

but like,,, she still makes the effort to be around me. i never wanna impose myself on anyone so whenever we hang out, it's because she insists. i was leaving school yesterday & she ran up to my car before i could pull out of the lot & she made me roll down the window & told me she just wanted to say bye & she was smiling and 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 then i saw her boyfriend behind her & i was like k bye.

she's not the best in school, either. i, on the other hand, am rlly good at school for no fuCKING REASON. IM NOT SMART BUT I GET A'S IN MY HS & COLLEGE CLASSES IDK WHY. SHE'S ALWAYS CALLING ME SMART AND ASKS FOR HELP WITH MATH AND ENGLISH AND UGHDHHC SHE'S MY MF BABY THAT ISNT MY BABY

*side not, i'm not actually a hoe. i just have poor judgment sometimes😔*

anyway, at school
i'm pretty much seen as like, funny & goofy but pretty nerdy. some people find me attractive but i'm pretty sure thats just pity. OKAY AND I KNOW I MAKE MYSELF SOUND LIKE A LOSER BUT IM NOT I SWEAR
well i am but i'm seen as cool😌

ANYWAY GET THIS

I KIND OF HAVE A BOYFRIEND OKAY,,, LIKE AS OF A FEW DAYS AGO. WE'RE NOT OFFICIAL BUT EVERYONE BASICALLY KNOWS.
and its not that i don't like him, i do.
but her,,,,,,, wow.

BUT THATS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN RIGHT???
this shit sucks man

anyway, i miss wrestling. we haven't had practice today & i gained like 2 pounds. i was 107 & now i'm 109🥵🥵