Lost In My Thoughts

I'm tired, aren't you?

I've become a fool.

This may be true,

But it was all because of you,

And what you put me through.

I hate that I let you do that,

That it took me so long to face facts...

That I believed our love wasn't simply an obligatory contract...

Only together because of what we were going through.

Honestly...

I don't blame you,

Only myself.

I ignored the kind words of friends who only tried to help.

Who only wanted me to understand that people who truly care won't put you through hell...

For someone else...

They pick you up,

Not leave you on a shelf...

And...

By the time I faced reality,

You had stole away everything,

Even my dignity,

You left me there alone breathing rigidly...

In tears I lament only now at my stupidity.

If we are talking sadness then this had to be my epitome...

But please do not pitty me...

Because eventually,

I started to think of ways to get back at you,

Surely one day you would rue...

I promised myself that I'd make you regret what you put me through.

But as time went bye I realized...

Understanding that enough is enough and walking away,

Is what is the best sometimes...

So now I can honestly tell you this...

Goodbye