Ephemeral BTS

15 ~ Tell Him

I walk out of my apartment and turn to lock the door. Behind me a door opens and I hear keys jingle. When I turn around Jungkook is standing there with a huge grin....and red hair.

"Is it that bad?" He asks. Holy fuck. I thought he looked good with brown hair, this is over ten times better.

"Jungkook....I.....you.....holy fuck.....just whoa, I love it," I barely get out. He chuckles and shakes his head.

"So you do like it?" He smirks. "Actually, love it," he corrects himself. I feel myself blush. It looks so soft, I wonder if it'd be weird of me to ask to touch it. As if he could read my mind he leans forward a little.

"Go ahead, touch it," he laughs.

"Are my thoughts that loud?" I roll my eyes.

"All the time," he says still pretty much bowing in front of me. I take my hand and gently slide it through his hair. It's softer than I imagined. He starts to stand up straight making my hand slide to the side of his face. He takes his hand and gently places it on top of mine sending electricity through me. What's this?

"Have I told you how much I missed walking you to class?" He whispers as he takes a step forward. We're so close right now, maybe a little too close.

"Nope," I say in a small voice. It's weird because my voice was fine a minute ago.

"Via I-" The door to his apartment opens and we both break away and turn from each other. I look back at the door and Jimin is standing there, staring me down hard. Something else is that his hair is now blonde and he also looks just as gorgeous.

"But I have no right to get mad right?" He scoffs. I sigh and start to walk towards him.

"Jimin-"

"Have a nice day Vivian, Jungkook," he nods as he shoulders pass Jungkook. Jungkook reaches towards his arm.

"Hey man listen-"

"No," he pushes Jungkook's hand away. "Why would I need to listen? I don't need an explanation," he coldly says before walking off. Once he's gone Jungkook turns towards me.

"Is there something I should know about?" He asks. I shake my head. "Then why was he that upset?"

"We were upset at each other last night," I say.

"Why?"

"He wanted to take me out again but I said we should spend time with you because you just got back," I look at the floor.

"He's taken you out already?" Jungkook asks.

"Yes," I say.

"And you didnt think I should know that?" He asks.

"So I have to explain myself to you too now?" I shoot back.

"You can't go out with him and then have moments like that with me Vivian, it's not fair to him or to me," Jungkook says.

"But nothing even happened between us," I scoff. He comes up to me and grabs my face.

"Via he likes you, he took you out because he wants to be with you, not with all of us," he explains.

"But what if I don't feel the same?" I ask.

"Tell him," he strokes my cheek. I nod my head again. "For now let's go to class," he smiles.

"Where are your books?" I ask when I notice he's not holding anything. He gives me a smirk and turns around.

"I got a bookbag," he says. Yes, and it just so happens to be brown....like I had suggested.

In class Jimin didn't sit next to me, much less look at me. It hurts a little because I'm pretty sure I hurt him without even meaning to. I also know that what was going on between Jungkook and I this morning wasn't exactly innocent and I understand why he was mad.

My only problem is that I don't get upset everytime I see him with a different girl, which is often. He even ran with one right before he took me to the movies. If anything I should be pissed, not him.

"What do I do?" I ask Taehyung after spilling everything.

"Vivian, you have to understand that Jimin didn't just see you with any other guy. He saw you interacting with Jungkook, one of his best friends. He's allowed to be mad," Tae sighs.

"I get that but what about the endless girls lining up for his attention? You go to class with us Tae, you've seen all the girls too," I point out.

"But has he taken any of them out?" He asks.

"Jungkook and I haven't even been on an actual date," I sigh.

"Vivian I honestly don't want to give you advice because if something goes wrong..." he raises and eyebrow not finishing the sentence.

"Okay then what would you do in my place?" I ask making him sigh.

"That's literally still asking for advice," Tae rolls his eyes.

"Dammit V just tell me something!" I laugh before slumping down on the grass. Taehyung walks over to me and sits. He starts to grab my head. "Whoa, whatcha doing buddy?" I cautiously ask.

"Rest your head on my lap," he pats his thighs like it's the most obvious thing in the world. He must see my hesitation because he rolls his eyes AGAIN and decides to place my head on his lap for me.

"Is this common here?" I ask while nervously playing with my hands.

"Friends showing affection? Yes. Have you not seen how close the guys are?" He asks. I suddenly recall the guys sitting on each other's lap or feeding each other, even showering together which to me is borderline extreme.

"Then why does Jimin get upset when I'm around Jungkook?" I ask. Taehyung playfully hits my head.

"Vivian, he's jealous. Are you being serious right now?" He says with exasperation.

"Am I seriously that clueless?" I cross my arms.

"Apparently," Tae laughs while running his fingers through my hair. I close my eyes because the nice weather, the faint sound of the water flowing, the quietness of the park and Tae playing with my hair make me feel at ease.

"I'm going to miss you guys," I say.

"We'll all miss you too, especially watching you struggle with chopsticks," he chuckles. I feel a smile spread on my face. I don't know when it happens but I fall asleep under the tree, with my head resting on Taehyung's lap.