Thoughts and poems

"honnorable mention"

why don't you see
how special you are to me
as you sit there and ignore
do you even know you are all i adore?
why can't i be as amazing to you as they are?
i'm sorry i don't outshine them like a star
i feel like with you, i'm just an honorable mention
i feel like i'm constantly stuck in detention
watching you, care and love them,
god, around you i feel like nothing but an ATM
why can't you see that i'm special too?
you've turned me from yellow,
into a dark shade of blue.
i wish with you to be more than i am,
but frankly, you couldn't give a damn.