boyf riends one shots (completed)

hurt pt 1

I am usually against rude christine because love her but just go along with it for this one please don't get mad at me i got inspired and wanted to do this

TW:angsty

Michael

I helpef Jeremy i saved everyone yet they all praise jeremy not giving me any credit for finding out how to get rid of the squip

They all love jeremy because he was "so strong" I feel so fucking selfish bur imagine how fucking strong i had to be and still have to be

Im not strong im weak i helped jeremy get Christine and now he pays no attention to me im just a spec of dust blowing in the wind

I forgave him after he apologized but i just want him back not a sorry just to hug him and have him back

Its so frustrating hes obsessed with christine she always reminds me of that sending me rude and hateful messages

She has even threatened me if i ever tried to regain me and jeremys friendship

Its true i will never have him back he was all i had my mom's are never home off on vacations with out me

Seriously no one would care if i just died so heere i am sulking in my bed debating whether i should add new decorations to my arm

Not a hard decision but will I really enjoy it now I guess i mean I'm thinking of it

God im such a freak the gay boy who is in love with his friend and cuts himself hoping to bleed out to death

I even gave Jeremy a spare key to my house thats how close we were but he threw it away all for one girl

One girl that has hurt me the one who has been with him since diapers for the girl who has stuck with him for three months

Yes three months he has been with that girl seeing it in the halls kills me she will purposely make out with him in front of me throwing me death glares

They are so affectionate and happy I don't bother going in the cafeteria to eat scared people will judge me for sitting alone

My reputation is low enough I never cared about popularity but i care about what people think of me

Its a confusing system i know all the popular people are brats and i don't want to become one like Jeremy for example

Excpet he's not a brat he did what's best for him to leave me if it makes him happy atleast i know my love can live a happy life

i can barely get up to eat or even get ready in the morning the most decent thing i do is take showers but thats to wash the blood away

My hair is tangled like a rats nest i slump when i walk having no energy insomnia taking a living in me

Bags hanging under my eyes sleep deprived barely passing school so I can atleast get in a college

I remember when me and jeremy had plans for college we were going to be cool in college just me and him against the hell of this world

Guess its just going to be me i feel as i have no strength left i even plan little suicide sences of myself not acting them out just imagining

I look over to see something i never wanted to see perfect fucking timing

Bitchychrissy: hey loser just wanted to tell you about my lovely date yesterday with jeremy to busy cuddling with him to text you this yesterday he will always be mine c'mon go just fucking go try to think of who would care you know the answer

I sigh and tremble into my bathroom i can't even block her she threatened to spread nasty rumors about me

I take the box of razors that i ordered off of amazon and just pick a random one

Why a box it was actually cheaper and its nice to find a sharper one I slide the box back in its place and sit against the bathtub

I roll up my pants easily due to weight loss I have no more room on my arms

I pierce the cold blade into my skin enjoying the stinging I hastily cut more in different directions

I watch the blood drip down my legs calmly enjoying the sting after cutting I wash the blade throw my jeans and boxers in the washing machine I throw my hoodie outside of the room

I throw my tank top in the washer and finally step into the shower i turn on the hot water making it burn the cuts

I smile at the pain it feels amazing I watch the blood go down the drain I lazily wash my hair and step out

I walk out of the room grab clothes not even looking at them slipping then on then puting my hoodie on

I scroll through Christine's Instagram and feel tears trickle down my cheeks
as I see how happy jeremy and Christine are

I cry heavier amounts when i see all the comments about how everyone loves them as a couple untill i see one comment

Richthebibitch: i support you guys i mean your my best friends but i can't help but still ship the boyfs @wallnutboi what happend to headphones kid

Brookeisagreatfuckingcook: yeah I've been wondering you guys have always been together to be honest it kind of worries me how can you stay yourself without him

Wow i guess not all popular kids are rude especially Brooke I mean i always saw her as nicer but that was very nice

I hear my door slowly creek and I look to see the one and only

Jeremy heere....

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Haha I'm actually proud of this and cliffhanger I will probably make the second chapter tomorrow thanks for reading
                                     Sincerely me with a coma after sincerely