All These Random Things

10/9/14

If you think I should stay alive pm me yes if not say no I need to know how many of you care I hate myself and my life right now.

Nobody at home cares and if they act like it they are pretending.

i want to self harm everyday but i say no to the blade and i can't go see a therapist because then my mom and dad will know if something is up.

I am in sooo much pain on the inside i look terrible, but on the out side i am the pretty (not, i am ugly) peppy funny girl that i always am.

can someone shoot me now i need to know what life is like on the other end if pain goes away or not i need to know what my older family members will think.

since no ones home i may just do nothing, hold my breath, punch a hole in my wall, watch you tube videos but who knows what i might actually do I am not telling you so if you want to see me again I would tell me now or it is never.

IF YOU ARE READING THIS IT IS BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO I JUST HAD A LOT ON MY MIND SO I HAD TO WRIGHT IT ALL DOWN DON'T WORRY GUYS I WILL BE OKAY!!! IF YOU WANT TO SPEAK TO ME PM ME. 

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ love you all

~the dinosaur