*This is the first chapter of my first story. Its basically a summary of Jirou's past. This story is mostly focused on the BakuJirou ship but if thats not your thing then keep in mind that I plan on making other fanfics revolving around other ships, theories, etc that relate to BNHA. Im also open to suggestions. If you have any feedback, comments, or things you would change in this story then please let me know 👌💜😃*
I hope you enjoy
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JIROU'S POV
Bakugou is notorious for being the "Asshole" of Class 1-A, don't get me wrong, what he has put Midoriya through since their childhood is awful but ever since I saw him, Ive had a feeling that he has a kind heart deep down
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Behind the tough guy act
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The same fake act that stuck a toxic voice inside my head that I once relied on
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The one that assured me that it was there for me
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After stabbing me in the back repeatedly and shattering my vulnerable heart
Throughout my school years I was blinded by the idea of being perfect
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Having a hot body
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Being cute and pretty
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Being popular and dressing all fancy
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I know it sounds cliché as hell but it's not like it is in the movies, it killed my
joy and began a long road of regret
and self-hate. It destroyed my self confidence, ruined my relationships, and drove me insane
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I would slit my wrists every day
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The feeling of control consumed me
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The pain fed my craving of relief
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Relief from the painful words that cut sharper than a dagger and deeper than the hole I had dug myself into because I was so weak
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Relief from the rejection and not being accepted by anyone
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Relief from the meaningless pity from people who "cared"
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A way to escape lifes merciless torment
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Maybe if I bleed enough
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My misery will drip away with it
I was bullied for my pathetic body and looks, the girls would talk behind my back like the cowards they were and some had the balls to say them to my face and knock me down physically mentally and emotionally while to the guys, I was practically considered a man. It escalated over the semesters drastically
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They abused and manipulated me, I started out as their friends however they began disguising insults and humiliation as kind constructive critisism so they took advantage of my desprate need to impress them and blinded me. They pushed bad habits and actions like eating little to nothing every day and relieving the starvation through forcing a feast down my throat followed by throwing it all up even though i hated every outfit, every conversation, every meal, I shoved that feeling deep down. I started obsessing over my weight and measurements eventually this voice followed me around even when my "friends" weren't around critisising my every actions. My words don't do it justice...I wouldn't wish what I went through on my worst enemy...or so I thought.
Eventually it hit me that after all my suffering
Nothing.
Ever.
Fucking.
Changed.
I couldn't just stand there and take it any longer, I had been trying so hard to change myself for nothing, so I snapped and rage took control of my body
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I attacked anyone who had ever wronged me by punching, kicking, and beating them while collecting the vibrations of their screams and channeling them towards them and abusing them using my earphone jacks
I'm so ashamed
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I'm not fit to be a hero
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I'm not worthy
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I cant control myself
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I lost everyone and everything I loved
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I abused my quirk like a villan would
It took me a while to recover all on my own. I fell back on music when I couldn't handle it on my own, I finally had something to call my safe haven. I couldn't bare to tell my parents about what I have done and how much of a dissapointment I was... I transfered schools and they never had a clue...even after my recovery...
could never get rid of the feeling of shame
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I don't deserve love
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I don't deserve happiness
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I don't deserve sympathy
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I don't deserve to be enrolled at UA
Even when my classmates were in grave danger and risking their lives in the Forest Incident, my weak ass was knocked out and couldn't even help out Bakugou when he was kidnapped
And still all I can do about it is complain
This has to change
I can't let him make the same mistakes I did
I won't let it happen
To be continued
Very soon
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VOCÊ ESTÁ LENDO
More Than What Meets The Eye
Fanfic*Im not sure what direction im taking this story in but here's my plan so far*: During her time at UA, Jirou sees a bit of her past self in her classmate Bakugou and takes what she has learned from her dark past and tries to prevent him from making...
