Best friends with benefits

Cause I'm yours

(Read when she starts singing)

I look at gray and katana dancing.

Why can that be me. I wish that was me. He makes me feel so happy. He makes me laugh that I can't even breathe. He makes me feel better about myself. He makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world. I can't stop thinking about him.

I feel a tear come down my face.

No I can't cry. Stop crying Kacie. Don't cry. God damn it. Stop crying. Your better than this. He looks happy with her though, but why her. Why does he have to like her instead of me. Why did he have to kiss me in that moment. It's always replaying in my head, and how I felt.

I roll my eyes, and wiping the tears away.

Why did I even say yes to that stupid benefits thing. I knew something was going to happen, and I fucking ignored it. Why am I so stupid thinking he would like me. Why am I so stupid. Why do I have to like my best friend.

Why? Why do I have to like him. Why him? I just want him. That's all I want. Ugh I just want to scream. I just want him. I want to dance with him. I want to call him mine so bad. Why?

(Flashback when we were kids)

G: "do you like me?"
K: "no you have cooties"

With a straight face

G: "when we are older you will love me, and I will love you"

(End of flashback)

I cry even more, everything makes sense we were suppose to be together. But I was so stupid. In elementary school, and middle school. He liked me! But I liked nick, and I didn't see it. Why do I have to be so stupid. I could've been with him all this time, but I had to figure it out now, and it's probably to late.

He smiles at katana

His smile can light up any room. When he smiles at me, he makes me feel like I'm his. But I know that I will never be his.

Your so stupid. Why? Why? Just why? I fucking hate it when I think about him and me like I have a chance with my best friend.

Katana and gray kiss. I cry even more.

They look like their in love, and I just need to tell myself that we will never be together, and I need to get use to that.

I get up and run outside with tears running down my face. People were blocking the front, so I push myself threw. I go outside and felt a hand grab my wrist.

G: "where are you going"

I face him

G: "why are you crying?"
K: "because"

I walk away

G: "because what?"

He grabs my hand.

K: "because of you"
G: "because of me why?"
K: "because I can't stand you and her dancing, it hurts"
G: "why does it hurt?"
K: "because I like you, you idiot"

He stands there in shock

G: "you, you like me"

He says confused

K: "yes"

I cry even more

G: "when?"
K: "when you seen the text, and you kissed me. It was different then all the other ones"
G: "really?"
K: "no"

I say sarcastically

K:"Yes"

I yell

K: "do you like me?"
G: "I umm"
K: "that's what I thought"

I walk away

G: "I'm sorry"
K: "are you sure?"

I walk towards him

G: "what do you mean?"
K: "I mean, are you really sorry, or do you like playing with my feelings"
G: "no, of course not"
K: "then tell me do you like me or not"
G: "I..I don't know"
K: "tell me when you do know"

I walk away

G: "where are you going?"
K: "home"
G: "I'll take you"
K: "no I'm walking home"

I walk away with tears in my face almost blocking my view.

Why do I have to like my best friend?