Depri Sprüche

#461-465

You know what your problem is?
You get attached, fast.
And once you're attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy.
It's never been about what you want, its always everyone's needs before your own.
You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, don't deserve them.
They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover.
But you're okay with that because they're in your life and that's all you ever really wanted.
And even if they screw you over, you'll still be there for them.
Because that's you.
That's who you are.
Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there.
That's why it's hard for you to let them go.

I hope there are days when your coffee tastes like magic, your playlist makes you dance, strangers make you smile and the night sky touches your soul.
I hope you fall in love with being alive again.

Anxiety
That's what's killing her
She's lost, she's full of fear
Sometimes she's uncomfortable in her own skin
She wants to flee, disappear and turn off the thoughts swarming in her head.
She wants to lock herself in her room
Where no one can see her
The outside world frightens her.
She'd rather be alone, where anxiety doesn't  haunt her

I knew a girl, who like to draw
She drew pictures that nobody saw
She was more artistic alone at night
In her bathroom out of sight
She didn't tell a soul and the gallery grew.

Her drawings were different; no pencil or pen
But she needed a bandage now and again
We had a date by the river; under the stars
She rolled up her sleeves and showed me her scars
She felt so embarrassed and looked at her shoe
I rolled up my sleeve and said I draw too...

Fake smile
Dried eye
Scratched wrists
Bruised thighs
White pills
Rope tight
Gun loaded
Suicide