Bones

let me

let me
fall again.
into love
into old and silly fights
into my school pages
highlighting every damn
word because I knew
nothing ; remembered
nothing.

let me hold hands
with the playground
surrounding me
gossip about
that boy
that girl
laugh because I thought
I was above it all
I wasn't
I'm not
I am
not.

I've come to know
I've come to realise
that no matter how hard
I try
I'll always just be that stupid
self absorbed
school girl
just trying to talk
bad and
letting people laugh
behind her back.