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after anissa leaves, i trudge up the stairs, remembering sammi was still in my room.
"get out." i demand
"but why baby?" sammi asks innocently
"BECAUSE YOU'VE RUINED MY LIFE. I COULD BE LIVING HAPPILY IN THE HILLS OF LA WITH THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND MY CHILDREN BUT NO MY DUMBASS KEEPS LETTING YOU BACK IN MY LIFE AND HERE I AM.. SINGLE, STILL LIVING WITH MY BANDMATES, THE ONLY KID I HAVE IS MY DOG, AND THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WHOLE HEARTEDLY HATES ME. YES I FUCKED UP MANY TIMES BUT THE BLAME ISNT JUST ON ME, YOU KEEP FUCKING THINGS UP FOR ME, YOU GET IN MY HEAD AND MANIPULATE ME TO GET WHAT YOU WANT, NOW GET THE FUCK OUT" i pour my heart out in frustration knowing i will never get anissa back
"yea whatever" sammi rolls her eyes and stomps out the room
i sit down on my bed and just let everything out, the tears, the anger....
"hey buddy can we come in?" edwin knocks on my door with the guys right behind him
i nod slowly accepting their request
they all sit down around me on my bed or my desk chair
"shes gone man, shes really gone this time..." i rest my head in my hands and continue to cry
"we didn't come in here to tell you we told you so but... we really did told you so." austin shrugs
"we told you it was a bad idea to INVITE SAMMI, to YOURS and ANISSAS FOUR FUCKING YEAR ANNIVERSARY PARTY. SAMMI FUCKING SANCHEZ. THE SAME GIRL WHO TOLD ANISSA FALSE ACCUSATIONS ABOUT YOU WHICH MADE ANISSA HESITANT ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP, THE SAME GIRL WHO HAS RUINED YOUR RELATIONSHIP ONCE AND WAS CAPABLE OF DOING IT AGAIN... you hear how stupid that sounds now that i yelled it out loud to you?" nick emphasizes
i nod and cry even harder.
"man you really love the girl huh?" brandon pats on my back
"look we cant promise you anything and tell you thats shes gonna come back because you made a lot of mistakes man. we wish we could help you but this ones on you" edwin says
"if you really love her, you need to make it clear that you do" austin suggests
i took in everything the guys said but this was gonna be hard. i truly didnt know what to do. i was at a stuck point.
i just want her back man....
