PAW Patrol Chronicles: Happy Pills

Rocky

"And now I lay me down to sleep and pray the lord my soul to keep. Angels watch me through the night, and wake me with the morning light, amen"

This prayer had become a nightly ritual for the mix, his faith kept him sane but he was by no means perfect. His flaws were like cracks in his armor, letting  pain and darkness into his life, yet his faith held fast.

'Maybe now I can sleep.' He thought getting under his blanket.

'How can you call yourself religious if you sin against your Father left and right?"

Rocky shut his eyes tighter trying to rid himself of the familiar voice in his ear. Rocky called it his bully and it surely treated him as Such, like a victim.  The voice had been there since Rocky could remember. Obsessing over all of his mistakes and faults.

"Remember what happened with Chase today? I bet you he is still upset about it. Was your apology really enough? "

' I already apologized and he said it himself that it was an accident.' Rocky thought mentally screaming at himself.

' And speaking of Chase, what a cute pup. I bet you could stare at his butt all day. You must be gay afterall .'

The voice continued its barrage on Rocky.

'Shut up shut up shut up! I'm not gay we have already been over this. I like Everest! '

Anxiety was building inside of the pup as he went back and forth with himself as the voice continued attacking Rocky's insecurities.

'Don't lie to yourself. If you arent gay than why can't you stop thinking about him."

Rocky winced at this, feeling disgusted.

'Think about it.'

Without warning Rockys mind was overflowed with thoughts of him and Chase, each one worse than the last but all about them. The worst ones left Rocky wanting to puke trying his hardest to get the sexual nightmares out of his head.

'Just leave me alone.' Rocky cried holding his head in his paws as he wheaped in the dark of his room.

'What about Ryder?'

"NOOOO." Rocky cried out.

'You dont want something bad happening to him do you?'

Rocky stopped at this, his full attention on the voice as grotesque visions of Ryder being violently hurt or worse  raced through his mind.

"FINE! I'll do it just stop, just make it stop." Rocky said wiping his tears away.  On his own he began thinking about Everest, eventually exciting himself enough to proceed. As he moved he could feel waves of pleasure and pressure growing between his legs.

'Now what about Chase?'

'Just let me do this.' Rocky pleaded.

As Rocky climaxed to his fantasies of Everest, the anxiety he felt seemed to vanish and a sense of calm came over him. He had done this so many times before, and it never really helped with any of it but Rocky didn't know what else to do.

As he was beginning to fall asleep more thoughts of Chase and himself having sex entered his mind .

Rocky felt more tears fall down his muzzle, anxiety crawling into his heart once again. He could hear the voice call out to him again.

'Are you certain your not gay, why don't we try again?'

Rocky has Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.