When we were young (A Chris Motionless story) (On Hold)

Chapter 35

{Raven's POV} 

When I woke up, I felt Chris snuggled up behind me with his arm draped across me I lightly stroked my fingers up his arm I felt Chris gently pull me closer to him he lightly kissed my shoulder. I rolled over facing him and kissed Chris we smiled against each other's lips he playfully bit my bottom lip and playfully grabbed my ass I felt my cheeks grow warm. 

"Can we talk about last night?" 

"There's other things I would like to do with you right now." 

"Christopher, I'm being serious can we forget about your hormones for a minute." I snapped. 

"You're right your wellbeing comes first before anything else." Chris said gazing at me. 

"Last night after you went up to bed I sat on the couch and cried because I feel like I'm being a bad role model for Emily, I made a phone call to your mom and told her what I asked you. Your mom told me that I better not try to starve myself like I did when I was a teenager, she said there is nothing wrong with how I look your mom said that I need to stop thinking I'm fat and trying to change my looks and love my curves." 

"I love you no matter what you look like I don't want you to change who you are because I love you just the way you are and I love every part of you. Who put this idea into your head that your fat?" 

"My mother she would always tell me that I look fat one time she didn't say I was fat she said that I looked portly but she was still calling me fat and I just always felt bad about the way I looked that's when I decided to try starving myself. When I told you that I was starving myself I never seen you get angry with me and you told your mom what I was doing both your parents told me to stop and I did." I explained fighting back tears. 

I buried my face in Chris's bare chest and let the tears fall he held me close and comforted me we heard our bedroom door open Chris kissed my head and continued to comfort me. 

"Daddy is mommy, okay?" 

"Your mom is reliving some painful memories from when we were young." 

"What can I do to make mommy feel better?" Emily asked. 

"You can help comfort your mom with me." Chris said. 

I felt Emily climb on me and felt her lay on me I took my face out of Chris's chest he kissed my forehead and wiped away my tears. 

"Daddy can I spend the night at grandmom's?" 

"Yeah, I'll take you to my mom's after breakfast." 

Emily kissed my cheek she crawled off the bed and left the room Chris brushed the back of his finger against my cheek I looked at him and smiled he kissed me. 

"Would you like some breakfast?" Chris asked. 

"Yes, please because I didn't have anything to eat last night because after I got off the phone with your mom it was too late to eat anything so I just went to bed." I said. 

Chris and I got up out of bed and walked downstairs we walked into the kitchen I walked over to the counter and turned on the coffee pot Emily walked over to me I bent down and picked her up I placed her on my hip. 

"Are you okay, mommy?" 

"I'm fine sweetheart I promise." 

"Daddy can I have a bowl of cereal?" Emily asked. 

"Yes," He replied. 

I put Emily down she walked over to the table and sat down Chris and I decided to have a bowl of cereal as well after breakfast I took Emily upstairs to her room, I packed her overnight bag while she got dressed. I followed Emily into the bathroom and helped her put the toothpaste on her toothbrush I made Emily's bed and sat down when she came out of the bathroom, I brushed her hair and pulled her hair up into a pony tail.