Bonds

2: [before comeback]

A.C.E

They have worries.
And fear.
That they will failed the fan.
The music, the lyrics, the songs, the dances, all are good.
And they practiced like it was a true performance showed not only for the mirrors on practice room, but for peoples, for Choice.
But the fear still there.
Jun know the others feel it too. When they talked about it, together, they will be each other strength with all the compliment and encouraging words being thrown. The fear will dissapear or at least decreased, and being replace with grattitude instead.
But the fear always comeback.
And Jun will always questioned himself what if he didn't do enough?
What if he didn't lead them enough?
What if...?
All the worries always catching up at him, especially near the comeback.
Like now.
Ten days.
Only ten days before comeback.
They excited, they waiting.
But the fear never gone.
They practiced hard. They trying hard. They working hard.
The fear still there.
"Jun Hyung, about v-live...,"
But they always make time for v-live for Choice.
And for themself.
It was a fact. That communicated with their fan, even only trough v-live comment, it help him.
It help them.
Because sometimes encouragement words from their friends, from themself, doesn't enough.
Sometimes they need it worded by their fan.
By Choice.
That no matter what, they believe A.C.E will doing well.
That no matter what, they will love them.
No matter what.

Choi

It is a hard day.
Again.
I know i am pitiful. Sometimes i asked myself how i am so weak.
So easy to be broken.
And sometimes by little things.
Voices that higher than it needed.
Words that sound as a joke but still harsh.
Uncertainty of my day tomorrow.
How my future will unfold?
I hide behind my plain face, behind my small smile, behind my easy tone words.
But i am scared.
I am scared to talked to new peoples.
I am scared with the fact that i maybe never achieve my dreams.
I am scared i will messed up my job.
I am scared over a little things, over big things, over important things.
I am scared. Sometimes i can hold myself, sometimes i can not. Sometimes i break a cold sweat without reasons. Sometimes i crying in my sleep.
Everyday is hard.
And i always depend to all the little things, trying to hold up.
Looking for things to wait for, to make sure i hold myself together.
Because sometimes what you have not enough. Sometimes all the praying and the hope not enough.
Sometimes you need a lifeline, even it looked and sounded small and unimportant.
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Ten days.
They already changed hair colour.
Eight days.
The teaser already posted.
I excited.
My day going bad in the morning but i pat myself and remember that i waiting for them.
Little things can broke you but little things can make you too.
And i remember the vlive.
And sigh.
They being their usually self, the warm and happy A.C.E. But it doesn't mean they doesn't feel anything when the comeback date already so close.
I hope i can write anything to ease their worries.
To assured them it is okay, everything gonna works for the best.
They will win an award or not, they still the best groups for Choice. For me.
And that we know they trying hard.
They always trying hard.
I only can commented "thank you".
Thank you for trying hard.
Thank you for practicing hard.
Thank you for working hard.
Thank you.

Thank you for being one of my lifeline.
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