Scratches On My Gravestone

| The Greatest Fear |

My heart is made of bitter, secrets rot into my soul

The stench of love mistaken for the burdens of my goal

Not easy to be silent when the pain screams in your face

I smiled because I longed to feel the warmth of your embrace

My eyes have long forgotten how to shed the smallest tear

But, I've resolved myself, I have become my greatest fear

The fear of being "Dirty, Selfish Liar and Disgrace"

The envy, never catching up to you with my own pace

The guilt of staining, tainting you, the red filth of my sin

The anger as I beg you, stop you right where I begin

You'll never know the things I've heard, the things I've seen and done

You'll never know about this scary monster on the run

At times like this, my heart aches, it's too late for you and me

Impossible to make you proud of one you'll never see

I've only disappointed you, I fear that's all I'll do

Due to disappoint lies that hold what otherwise is true

It's the only thing I'm good at, it makes up what I am

I'm the fear born out of a heart that never gives a damn