My Diary

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Ok, something crazy is happening. Actually, two crazy things, one I have been getting signs like crazy about my dream job, and minor signs for my maybe 'soulmate'.

So, first my dream job, so I want to work for Disney like hard core. I plan on being an editor or 2D animator, or maybe even a director. So, everywhere I go there is a sign. Like my schools homecoming theme is Disney, our school dance is red carpet. My step-dad had a dream I was on Red Carpet for a movie. It is everywhere! It's insane! I could list more, but I really want to talk about my soulmate before play practice.

Anyway, so I always had a gut feeling when his guy was going to post. Like one time I had this strange feeling and began thinking about him that same day he posted. Another day I was thinking about Spiderman and poof he posted a video on Spiderman. And a week ago, I was think about Harry Potter, he posted about Harry Potter like it was creepy.

I just hope he will notice me and feel the same way. He is cute, a dork with cheesy puns, his smile could light up a room, his eyes are just...breathe taking. I just melt like butter. He also looks very kissable, you know?Like, I could just walk up and kiss him. He also got on the page of New York Times!!! THAT IS INSANE!!! I mean I never doubted it, I mean he is famous and making an impact. I don't know, just seeing him on the New York Time seemed to pull him away from me and I am getting mixed signs from God. Is he the one or not?
He just fits everything on my list but the chances that we would find each other and he would pick me are REALLY slim. Girls fawn over him all the time and they are prettier, smarter, and just better. They have better chances than I do. They probably live closer to him too.
But when I see him my heart just melts in to a puddle and I just think, "I want to spend the rest of my life with him." Even though we have never meet face to face. I get it might be a celebrity crush, but I have had them before, but nothing like this. It just hit me. You know in Hamilton, in the song Helpless when Eliza says, "you walked in and my heart went BOOM!!" That's how I felt when I first saw him in his post. I just....melted.
And now I just can't shake this feeling. He is EVERYWHERE I look. I think about him constantly and every time I do, I smile and my day gets brighter, I blush, and I am suddenly happier and forget all my worries.
What is happening to me?! Is this real or just other crush? I am just scared that I will get hurt...