Our little secret

Chapter 21

Maya PoV

I took a deep breath "No I don't feel anything for you" I slid out from under his arm "Goodnight Lucas"

I grabbed the door handle "Maya!" Lucas said quickly

"Don't leave things between us like this" Lucas spoke softly and I felt extremely bad I did love him, but I can't be with Lucas ever and it breaks my heart knowing this

"I'm sorry Lucas I just don't feel anything for you, not anymore" I lied,

I'm not sure if he bought it though since I was just getting nervous standing close to him and I do whenever we are alone but I needed him to believe it and move on.

I needed him to be happy

I opened the door "Goodnight" I said to him before I walked inside and shut the door behind me

Everyone except for Cory, Topanaga, Auggie and Lucas, we're all still here

"Thank you all for coming" I said forcing a fake smile "But the party is over, sorry to cut it short"

My mom and Shawn were the first to say goodbye to me, "Everything will work itself out sweetie" my mom said trying to comfort me, but as much as she wanted to make me see things would work out I couldn't help but be upset about this whole situation.

Why did I have to care so much? Why did I have to care if Riley was okay with us?

I don't know why I care so much but I do, I'd rather have everyone else happy over myself and I think that's how I'll always be

"Bye, I'll see you soon" I waved goodbye to them and when I opened the door again I noticed Lucas had left I'm not sure what I was expecting, of course he left

"I'll go and get Hope ready for bed" Josh said offering to help me out, I thanked him and he took Hopes hand and they went into her room

I went and slouched down on the couch, Zay, Smackle and Farkle came over to me

"You okay?" Farkle asked sitting next to me

"Just peachy" I said sarcastically

I looked at Zay and Smackle "Sorry if we ruined your special night" I said referring to the proposal

Because of me and Lucas the attention was taken away from them and I ruined what should be a happy night for them with our drama

"It's okay Maya, it's kinda my fault anyway" Zay said looking guilty

"No-no- no it's not your fault at all" I spoke quickly making sure Zay knew it wasn't his fault that this all started tonight "Me and Lucas should of talked about this earlier but I kept putting it off"

"So what is this between you two?" Smackle asked curiously

"We are just friends, that's all we are" I lied again, I had been lying so much lately it had just become the normal thing for me to do

"We can all see the way you both look at each other" Smackle starting talking more about it and I just wanted them all to believe that we are just friends and that's it, I'm tired of talking about it

"Honestly we aren't anything more than friends" I said pushing the lie, maybe if I kept saying it, it would actually be true

"Maya-" Farkle started to say something but I cut him off

"I'm going to go and say goodnight to my daughter" I stood up from the couch

"I'm done talking about this you can all leave now..... thanks for coming Merry Christmas and congratulations" I said quickly before I walked away from them all and into Hopes room